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the abandoned blog

2011-11-15T12:19:00.000+11:00

Salam~ Heh, I haven't been writing in this blog for so long. Sorry about that. Kinda lost interest in a while. I've opened up a new account in tumblr. http://fairyn.tumblr.com
But I have no intention in abandoning my blog just yet..I'll think about it.
So, today I'll be seating for my 2nd paper for my exams. Pray for me will you? =) Thanks.
The next paper will be the day after tomorrow. The killer paper =_=" Statistics.
At this rate, I'm just praying for the best. And hopefully, I'll pass. [Yup, I'm being rational here, passing this paper is enough for me. Getting a higher grade than the passing grade will be a bonus.]
As usual, my exam will end up later than everyone else..on the 24th of November.
I'll be flying back to Malaysia on the night of 25th of November. Yeay!
Well, I'll end this here for now. Till then. Don't miss me so much =)

when Ramadhan ends..

2011-08-30T15:32:00.000+10:00

When Ramadhan ends, it marks the beginning of everything. All those hard works during Ramadhan will be put into test. This is a test for our 'taqwa'. To see if we had achieve our aim for fasting in the first place as stated in Surah Al-Baqarah (2:183).

"Isn't the Eid-Fitr a day for celebration? Why should we worry about this 'test' thingy?"

Yes, it's a celebration, a victory for us after being able to fast for a month, guarding our senses, speak good words, give a lot of 'sadaqah' and wake up at night for 'qiyam' and everything else..MashaAllah! May Allah accept it from us and you..'Taqabalallahu minna waminkum'

But, we don't know..we don't know if all those deeds are accepted by Allah.
Imagine this, Ramadhan is like the examination weeks in which during this time, everything that we do, revolve around the exam..
We ate while reading a book,
We slept with a book on our face,
We walked with our minds full with formulas or facts to remember,
We planned our time to maximise the amount of studying,
We reduced the time for playing around,
We studied till late at night..

The same goes for Ramadhan, rite?
We ate because we want to have the sahur or breaking our fast,
We slept because we want to be able to wake up for 'qiyam' and sahur,
We walked with our ears listening to the Qur'an recitation or memorising the 'surahs',
We planned for where we are going to break our fast or when we want to read the Qur'an,
We did good things, and avoid bad things,
We woke up late at night to worship Allah..
Everything that we did, we are trying to get the maximum benefit from Ramadhan..

And so, back to the exams analogy,
After the examination weeks are over..
We celebrated it like it's the best day ever!!
Like all our hard works are finally paid off to have this burden lifted off our shoulder..
When instead, we are not even sure if we will pass the exams and get good marks..
Until the results are released.

So, does that mean, after the exams are over we can just relax and forget about everything that we had learnt? ~~[i know i did forget about lots of things i learnt during high school..=_= heh.scratch that.]~~
No, rite? cause some of the things that we had learnt will be applied later in our studies, at work and in our life. That's the purpose of learning.

Thus, with Ramadhan, everything that we had consistently did for a month, do we just want to forget about it after Ramadhan ends??? All those efforts...will be a waste if we just leave them like that.

Like I said before, we don't know if the 'ibadah' will be accepted by Allah. So, we have to continue to do what we did during Ramadhan to gain rewards even after the blessed month of Ramadhan. If I remember correctly, in one of the hadeeth, it says the best act of worships are those done consistently ('istiqamah').

You can also imagine Ramadhan as a training arena for us to prepare for the rest 11 months until Ramadhan next year, insyaAllah..Let us be like a caterpillar that will turn into a beautiful butterfly at the end of Ramadhan..yeay!

So, let us be steadfast in this religion and in our 'ibadah'. InshaAllah, everything I wrote is mainly a reminder for me, and it will be great if they can be a reminder for you too..^_^

ps: oh, btw..i'm still fasting today. Melbournians are celebrating the eid tomorrow..how lucky are we to get another day with Ramadhan..:) Happy Eid Mubarak!!

i wanna be like..

2011-08-07T13:56:00.004+10:00

I wanna be like Siti Khadijah, who was a super woman. Great in doing household chores and taking care of her family, a great wife to Prophet Muhammad SAW, as well as being a great businesswoman..totally inspiring.

I wanna be like Aishah binti Abu Bakar who was a great woman and a great wife to the Prophet SAW. She was a bright and intelligent woman and had a formidable memory. She transmitted many hadeeth and even the Companions would ask Aishah on any difficult matters. She was a great teacher and had a very clear and persuasive manner of speech.

I wanna be like Abu Bakar, who was a mild and gentle person but stern when necessary. Known as As-Siddiq. A great leader and a great companion to the Prophet SAW. And, one of his good deeds are as much as the stars in the sky. MashaAllah!

I wanna be like Umar Al-Khattab who was a strong, courageous and fearless man before and after accepting Islam. He was known as Al-Farouq and his power and strength had help Islam to stand against the musyrikin. His faith is so strong that even the shaytan will walk the other road if they see him. When he passed away, Ibn Mas'ud said nine-tenth of all knowledge vanished with him. That knowledge is the knowledge on Allah.

I wanna be like Abdullah Ibn Mas'ud who knew about the Qur'an more than anyone else. Allah has given him the talent to recite and understand the Qur'an to the extent that the Prophet directed his Companions to follow his example. He was also a brave man. He was the first person to recite the Qur'an aloud to the Quraish.

I wanna be like Uthman bin 'Affan who was a wealthy man. He was a generous and extremely kindhearted man and looked upon his wealth as a means of helping others. He was also the first person to give up his hearth and home for the cause of Allah. Tears used to roll down his face because of his fear of Allah and he was a strict follower of the sunnah of the Prophet.

I wanna be like Mus'ab bin Umayr who stay firm in his faith even though his mother stand against him. Whose faith and good personality had helped in the spreading of Islam in Madinah. He gave up his luxury and wealthy life in the cause of Allah.

I wanna be like Ali bin Abi Talib who was very brave to sleep in the place of the Prophet during the migration to Madinah. He was the hero of many battle fought in the lifetime of the Prophet SAW. He was a good judge too and the other three caliph agreed he was the best among them.

These are one of the many role models that I look up to. Reading their stories amazed me and there are still lots of other stories of the Companions that I haven't read yet.

What about you? ^______^

O Ramadhan!

2011-07-29T23:20:00.002+10:00

One more day till I can see you..:) I'm truly excited! This time, it will be the second time I meet you in Aussie..^_^ wee!

Ramadhan is a blessed month where all our good deeds will be rewarded more than any other month. So, what are you waiting for? Grab this opportunity! Read the Qur'an and try to finish it by the end of the month or do qiamullail or give money to charity or do zikr or basically do as many good deeds as possible. Cause we don't know if we'll ever see Ramadhan again.

They say Ramadhan is a month for us to prepare ourselves, to equip us with enough strength to face the other 11 months. Because during this time, when the shaytan will be lock up in hell, it'll be easier for us to do good things..(insyaAllah..).

If you have been waiting for the right time to change, Ramadhan will be the best time of all. Let say if someone want to quit smoking, quit backbiting, quit slandering, start praying the sunnah prayer, start going to masjid, start doing sadaqah...everything will be bless by Allah..insyaAllah..=)

The most important thing I think is to be consistent in what we do and Allah said so in one of his hadith. We may think that what we did was only a small thing, like donating a 50 cent to a masjid everyday, but insyaAllah Allah will reward us generously with that.

So, let us savor the moment we'll have with Ramadhan this year. So we'll have no regret later. Are you ready? ^___________^

first step

2011-07-21T23:19:00.003+10:00

There's always a first time for everything, agree? And most of the time, the first step is the most difficult step to take. It is the step that will determine if we can move forward and continue that journey or it is the step that will hold us back and put us in doubt.

I know, to try something new or be involved or committed with something takes a lot of courage and determination but once you feel the thrill and excitement in doing that thing, subhanAllah, amazing. Even more amazing if we're doing it in the cause of God..

Remember when we were cute lil' babies trying to learn how to walk? Nahh,,of course you don't remember..but from watching those cute lil' babies learning how to walk, can we imagine that was us twenty-one years ago..? [well, for me lah. not sure bout u..oh, dah tua la jugak rasenye..=_=]

So, babies fall down and cry. But, do they give up? Did we give up once upon a time, a long, long time ago? Nope, right? cause if we did give up, how on earth did we learn how to walk now?

Because we have that determination and the support from the people around us. And of course from Allah..^_^

My dear friends, if you feel and think it's the right thing to do and it is not against Allah's command, why not try and take the first step? Cause who knows what's in store for us in the future. Open your eyes, open your hearts and pray that Allah guide us in the right way because Allah said in the Qur'an in Surah Al-Baqarah, verse 216.."....and it maybe that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know".

Still learning and always will be. Reminding myself before others~

ukhuwah =)

2011-07-20T09:06:00.001+10:00

warm winter

2011-07-18T09:19:00.002+10:00

Salam to all..=) It has been a long time since I wrote the last post. Winter break almost come to an end. Another week to go..and a new semester will start.

I don't want winter to end. Don't get me wrong, it's not because of the coldness of the weather but because of the warmness of the hearts..=)

I've met lots of new friends this winter and become closer to those I've met last year. And I can say that I finally feel the "sweetness of ukhuwah" that everyone have been saying. SubhanAllah, amazing..^_^

And I'm very thankful to Allah for not giving up on me and continue to give me guidance to the straight path to Jannah.

All these while, I think I've been doubting myself and unsure of certain things, but it's becoming clearer now, Alhamdulillah. And I pray to Allah I can stay strong.

One verse in the Qur'an that really stuck in my heart is Surah Al-Hajj (22: 77-78).

"Believers, worship your Lord, bow down and prostrate yourselves before Him and do virtuous deeds so that perhaps you will have everlasting happiness. Strive steadfastly for the Cause of God. He has chosen you but has not imposed hardship in your religion, the noble religion of your father, Abraham. God named you Muslims before and in this Book, so that the Messenger will witness (your actions) and will be the witness over mankind. Be steadfast in your prayer, pay the religious tax, and seek protection from God; He is your Guardian, a gracious Guardian and Helper."

Al-Habib

2011-06-14T21:28:00.002+10:00

Wee, I googled the meaning of Habib, I think it means "beloved male".

So, here's the nasheed "Al-Habib" (which refer to our beloved male: Prophet Muhammad SAW).

I've been looking for this song for ages! :)

Here's the lyric of the song (I found it really beautiful ^_^)

Ohh, and the singer is Talib Al-Habib. Try to listen and feel it!

la ilaha ilallah muhammadun rasulullah, alaihi salatullah wa alihi wal ahibba

shine your mercy like the sun, and be gracious as the earth

let your kindness come like rain that cares not whom it falls upon

and let ocean deep your wisdom be, your heart and lanterns spreading peace

give yourself in love of Him, be like al-habib

and in your deepest needs and in your deepest grieve, call on Him in humility

place your trust in the One, to whom creation turns

you'll find redemption and find peace

la ilaha ilallah muhammadun rasulullah, alaihi salatullah wa alihi wal ahibba

be a blazing fire of truth, be a soothing balm of peace

with the light of your sincerity, break the clouds of tyranny

let your faith be like a blessed tree, give your shade to all who seek

may your roots run true and deep, take your strength from al-habib

ya nabi salamalaik, ya rasulle salamalaik, ya habib salamalaik

salawatullah alaik

and all the certainty will bring tranquility, contentment with Allah's decree

give thanks for all that comes, be patient and know that someday you will return to Him

la ilaha ilallah muhammadun rasulullah, alaihi salatullah wa alihi wal ahibba

hold fast to the company of the folk of certainty

through the gaze and through your love for them,

may you be as one of them

be as gentle as the whispering breeze, spread solace to the world we're in

let your heart and soul be mirror clear, give life and love to al-habib

ya nabi salamalaik, ya rasulle salamalaik, ya habib salamalaik

salawatullah alaik

and stand before Allah like nothing else exists, and worship Him like you are seen

be with all creation and all your deeds and words

as though you have no self to clean

la ilaha ilallah muhammadun rasulullah, alaihi salatullah wa alihi wal ahibba

yet when you master all of this, forget not your neediness

were it not for Allah's grace, none of this can be achieved

so be humble as the lonely earth, that all creatures walk upon

be the slave of the most merciful, take your light from al habib

so shine your mercy like the sun, send your light across the earth

let your kindness flow like rivers, quench the thirst of all who come

and let mountain strong your spirit be, let your heart melt out of love for Him

take the road that leads to Him, may you be with al-habib

ya nabi salamalaik, ya rasul salamalaik, ya habib salamalaik

salawatullah alaik (x2)

la ilaha ilallah muhammadun rasulullah, alaihi salatullah wa alihi wal ahibba

my heart ♥

2011-06-10T23:18:00.003+10:00

Oh, the title reminds me of one of the famous Indonesian song during my days in boarding school. Raise your hand if you know it! (well, of course I can't actually see your hand). The song is not really great vocally, but well, it kinda stuck in your head after hearing it for couple of times over and over again.

Anyway, that's not what I'm going to talk about.. It's about something else.

In one of the hadith,

Al-Numan bin Basheer narrated that he heard Prophet Muhammad SAW say,

"Surely there is in the body a small piece of flesh; if it is good, the whole body is good, and if it is corrupted, the whole body is corrupted, and that is surely the heart" (Bukhari & Muslim)

Got it? So, I think right now, my whole body is just corrupted, cause my heart is. This heart is so full with envy, jealousy, anger, dissatisfaction, greed, hypocrisy..all sorts of things, you name it. I personally think our heart is the most difficult thing to control. When you are angry, you'll just be angry. Even though it's not shown physically but the real fact is you are angry deep down inside your heart. And with the continuous whispering from the shaytan just make it a lot worse, right?

Astaghfirullahalazim. Don't let our heart stray away. I always try to keep that in mind. Let's do this. Fight our nafs! Don't let our nafs control us! Be a mujahideen fighting with our inner self to keep on this straight path to Jannah!

I wonder how black my heart looks. I wonder if I can bleach my heart with 'clorox' or something to make it whiter and shinier. I want my heart to fill with love for Allah, for Prophet Muhammad SAW, for the messengers of Allah, for my family, my friends..Ya Allah, please help me..

Allah said in the Qur'an,

O mankind! There has come to you a good advice from your Lord (the Qur'an, ordering all that is good and forbidding all that is evil), and a healing for that (disease of ignorance, doubt, hypocrisy and differences, etc.) in your breasts, a guidance and a mercy for the believers (Surah Yunus 10:57)

Those who believe and those whose hearts find rest in the remembrance of Allah, Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest (Surah Ar-Ra'd 13:28)

Remember Allah and read the Qur'an. Yup, there's a light at the end of the tunnel. Those are the remedies for this corrupted heart.

May Allah grant us with His blessings and guide us in His path towards Jannah. InsyaAllah..=)

Reminding myself before others~

Salam imtihan =)

2011-06-05T19:42:00.005+10:00

Exam starts tomorrow =)

with the first paper "Organisational Behaviour"

next paper will be on the 10th, 16th and 24th June!

Wishing you (those who have exams too) all the best!! ^_^

Bittaufiq Wannajah!

Please forgive me for the wrongs I've done,

and pray for me, k..!

oh, how i miss the handsome guy..♥

2011-05-28T07:43:00.013+10:00

I'm pretty sure, you were wondering who that handsome guy is, rite?

Tom cruise? Brad pitt? Ki bum? Hyun bin? Aaron aziz? Fahrin Ahmad????

oh, no..no..no..

He's much better looking than them..

Not just from the outside, but beautiful on the inside too..

Who, you might ask? Well, let me give a clue.

Born on the 20th of April @ 12 RabiulAwal.

Known as the Al-Amin (the trustworthy).

Yup, that's rite..He's our beloved Prophet Muhammad SAW♥

Have we ever asked ourselves if we really know about our Prophet?

Can we really strongly claim that, "yes, we know him, we are his ummah"?

Do we know about his childhood stories? about his challenges?

about his characteres? Do we know what are the things that he loved?

When it comes to our favourite artists, actors or singers..

most people will dig out their backgrounds, their history,

on how they become popular, their deepest secrets, who they are dating with..

..everything! rite?

I know, I did that too.

But, what about our Prophet SAW?

Do we love and care about him enough to know about him?

Yes and no.

Yes, during Maulidur Rasul, we will always hear about his story.

But, what about the other time? Most probably not.

Have you ever feel in love?

Okeyyy, maybe not that lovey dovey stuffs.

Perhaps just a lil' crush on somebody?

or admiring someone?

Oh, just admit it. Don't be shy. We are human, we have feelings!

Ok, so whenever you feel that you like someone,

that person will always come to your mind right?

and sometimes we tried to do everything to please that person right?

So, we all ♥ Rasulullah. But, we sometimes forget about him.

If we want to claim that we love him,

follow his messages,

follow his examples,

follow his advice,

follow his footpaths..

Because he really, really, really loved us..=)

till the point of his death,

all he cared about was his 'ummah'! us!

You might think, how do we love somebody when we had never even see that person?

Well, Prophet Muhammad loves his ummah, hundreds of years before we even born yet.

SubhanAllah =)

Oh, how I wish I can meet him in person. I miss him.

Don't you?

Let us learn more about our Prophet Muhammad SAW.

I know, learning history is not always the first choice someone would do in their free times.

But know this, we wouldn't be here in the present if it wasn't the result from the past.

Make past close to us, so we feel more grateful of the present.

There are two videos here, (in malay)

Before clicking on it, think about what I just said,

feel the love that Rasulullah had for us..

and if you have time, you can watch this too.

Jazakum Allahu khairan kathira..:)

May Allah reward you in goodness abundantly.

don't know la..=_=

2011-05-24T18:06:00.003+10:00

My father loves to give us a pop quiz randomly..about history, physics, chemistry to current issues, religious stuffs and general knowledge. You name it! And it will usually occur during our breakfast or lunch or dinner or in the car, anywhere. Our usual answer will be, "Ntah, tak tau..=_=". And his standard response in a sarcastic way to our answer will be, "Kalau tak tau buat ape? tengok kartun? citer korea?" erk..>__<. *dush2*

It amazes me that my father knows about a lot of things. The things that he learnt during his school days, are still fresh in his mind and he knows about lots of things! [this might sound like I'm promoting my dad, but who cares, he is super cool! ^__^]. One of the many things that my father loves to do is reading. Lots of books that sometimes I wonder if he did finish reading all of them [of course he did..=P].

I do loves reading, I pick it up after him I guess =). I can finish reading a thick book with hundreds of pages in a day. "Impressive", you might or might not say. But, before you get the wrong idea, that is in the case of a novel, a story. Not an educational one..=_=". If you come to my house, you'll see these collection of books, mostly novels, from Meg Cabot, Danielle Steel, Jodi Piccoult, Sophie Kinsella, JK Rowling and lots more. There are educational books like the Disney's Encylcopedia and these series of "I wonder why" which I don't think I've finished reading all of them as compared to Harry Potter series which I've managed to read all the 7 books 2 times.

Knowledge are meant to be seek. It doesn't come naturally. We did not wake up one day, and we suddenly know everything about the "Chebyshev Inequality" or "Gordon's growth of perpetuity model" [Mr Google is there if you need them ;)]. We need to find and learn about this stuffs in order to understand them. Even geniuses, I think, have to put effort in learning about something.

Anyway, my point is, seek knowledge. As much as you can. The typical answer, "Ntah, tak tau lah.." should be changed to, "Oooh, I don't know about that. I will look it up after this" (^____^). The positive spirit to learn about something new should be there, cause there are many interesting, exciting and wonderful things that we are yet to discover. Reading is one of the medium to learn about these new things. Even the very first revelation from Allah to Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) for all of us was to Read!

Here's a snippet of the translation of Surah Al-'Alaq:

Read! in the name of your Lord who created all things, He created man from a clot of blood. Read! Your Lord is the most Honorable One, who, by the pen, taught the human being; He taught the human being what he did not know. Despite this, the human being still tends to rebel, because he thinks that he is independent. However, all things will return to you Lord.....(Al-'Alaq 96:1-8)

MashaAllah, amazing isn't it? Allah asked us to read, of course, it makes sense! Because His guidance to us are written in a book, The Holy Qur'an for us to read.

The culture of reading, I noticed, is widely practiced here in Australia, be it the businessmen, the construction workers or even the skateboarders love to read. While waiting the tram, while drinking coffee in the cafe, while in the tram, while lying down on the grass, while sitting on the bench.. most of these Aussies will have a book in their hand to read.

I wish this culture can be adapted in my home country. So, instead of gossiping or sitting there doing nothing, why don't we grab a book and read? Or even better, read the Qur'an with translation if you don't understand arabic. If you say, "Nah, it's too bulky/heavy", we have these smartphones and gadgets that have apps for books right? and the Qur'an with translation nowadays came in various of sizes that can be carried around easily. It may seem a bit awkward at first. Maybe we are conscious at what people might say about us being a nerdy or weird. But guess what? Who cares? As long as we get the benefit and doesn't harm other people, why all the worries? Like the Aussies favourite quote, "No worries mate!". Sometimes, we think too much about what other people think and we forgot about what really matters.

So, back to my personal problems.. I'm now trying to channel my love of reading from reading something that is not really beneficial to something that can increase my knowledge and my faith in Allah..insyaAllah =)

Wait a minute, those readings actually helped me somehow to improve my English but not beneficial spiritually, of course. heh. =_=. My love of writing also developed from one of the books that I've read.

Hmmm, anyway, my point is find your passion to read and seek knowledge! [heh, macam promote untuk kempen membaca la pulak..=P]. Happy reading!! ^_^

Which favors of your Lord do you deny?

2011-05-17T22:09:00.006+10:00

Alhamdullillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah..

Words can't express how thankful I am to Allah,

for giving me this opportunity to live..

to breathe, to smile, to laugh,

to cry, to learn, to walk,

to eat, to sleep, to talk,

to see, to feel, to stand, to sit,

to drink, to smell, to hear,

to draw, to write..

and the list goes on and on...........^_^

"Which favours of your Lord do you deny?" (Ar-Rahman : 13)

I'm also thankful for the happy and beautiful life I had for the past 21 years..

with all the special people around me..

To me, everyone that I had the chance to meet..

either in person or just from a distance,,

are special people..

and each had carved a special memory in my heart..:)

Thank you for making my life so colourful..

I'm so blessed, with what Allah had gave me..

So blessed with Islam, first and foremost..

So blessed with the life that came with Islam..

cause, I've learnt to appreciate what I have and be thankful..

and I've learnt that, even when everything seems to go wrong..

I know I'll have someone to depend on..:)

"Nothing shall ever happen to us except what Allah had ordained for us. He is our Lord and in Allah let the believers put their trust" (At-Taubah 9 : 51)

My family, of course is my strength..

cause they know me the best from all people..

and I love them veryyyyyy much...<3

and I miss them so much!

Thank you Allah..for giving me such wonderful family..

This birthday, to me is a sort of reminder..

that life will keep on moving and will not wait for you.

Whether you want it or not, you'll get older..

and when the time comes, you'll leave this world..

"Lord, guide us to the right path, the path of those to whom You have granted blessings, those who are neither subject to Your anger nor have gone astray." (Al-fatihah : 6-7)

Lastly, thank you lovely housemates!!

Thank you all! yes, you too!

(^__^)v

I love you for the sake of Allah..

Uhibbukum fillah..:)

^^

2011-05-07T08:49:00.001+10:00

:)

2011-05-05T06:43:00.000+10:00

Strike while the iron is hot

2011-04-30T19:06:00.004+10:00

Once there was a blacksmith and a young man who wanted to become his apprentice. The eager young man watched closely on how the blacksmith worked. When it's the time for the young man to do the job, he did perfectly from the beginning until after the iron had been put in the fire and at the point when the iron needs to be strike to attain the desired shape. He tried few times to do it but ended up not being able to shape the iron. He put it again in the fire, and tried it again, but with no luck. The blacksmith came to the frustrated young man and said, "Do you know that you have to strike the iron at the right time to shape it? Once you're late, you'll not be able to do it."
That's the story behind the phrase. I did not know that till I read it in a book which is called "Life is an Open Secret: Think About It" by Zabrina A. Bakar. I did paraphrase the story and change it here and there, so it's not plagiarism..:)hehe.

So, what about this phrase that I want to talk about?
About opportunities of course(duh!). Our Prophet Muhammad also reminded us about these opportunities that we have in our life in this hadith:

Ibn 'Abbas reported that the Prophet (pbuh)said, "Grab five things before five others: Your youth before decrepitude, your health before your illness, you wealth before your poverty, your leisure before your work, and your life before your death." (Al-Hakim)

MashaAllah. Very true indeed. [oh, i can hear u sing the raihan song. yes, i can..;)]

Let us think about it. Youth before decrepitude, or in other easier word to understand youth before old. So, what are the opportunities in our youth that we need to grab before becoming old? Yes, a lot.. I know. I remember most people will say.."Masa muda ni lah nak enjoyyyy.." Right? I agree, enjoy our youth. Do what we want to do. Enjoy every minute of it. But with what? It's the same with other four opportunities that are listed above. If we say, "Time skarang nilah

nak enjoy habis2, nanti dah tua aku insaflah gi masjid".. Sounds familiar? Yes, it's a mindset to some people that only when we grow old that we want to change to be a better person. But, here's the catch.. Are we sure that we'll have the chance to grow old? We do not know when we'll die, right?(life before death).. Or maybe one day, we'll be sick and bedridden...(Health before illness).... Is it too late at that time? Think about it.

Let us go back to once upon a time, a long, long time ago. Do you remember Sultan Muhamad Al Fateh, who successfully conquered Constantinople at the age of 21! *dush* How old am I again? Almost 21. What have I achieved so far? *dush* How many precious time that I've wasted doing nothing benefit at all..*dush*dush*

Why do we need to grab the opportunities? Because like the blacksmith said once we missed the chance, we will not be able to shape the iron. That tiny bit of chance. Like, when you have a lifelong dream to do something, and suddenly that opportunity is right in front of u..or Like, when God give us a flick in our heart (hidayah) and He open up a pathway for us to change.. to be a better person.. Grab it. Strike while the iron is hot. Don't miss the opportunity cause we might not get it again or it might be harder in the future. Go for it!!! Yes, take the first step..InsyaAllah, He will show you the way and ease your path especially if our niat is for Allah.

"O you who believe, if you help God, He will help you and make you steadfast in your faith" (Surah Muhammad, 47:7)

InsyaAllah, this is a reminder for me who's still learning and hopefully will be beneficial for you too..;)

March of the Penguins

2011-04-10T13:07:00.004+10:00

If you are looking for a movie to watch, I'll recommend this movie.

"March of the Penguins"

Though, it's more like a documentary, I guarantee it's not boring at all.

Definitely worth it..^^

I watched it two times already!

Once on youtube, but it's not the full version, missing a part I think,

The second time, I downloaded it..:)

Here's some of the snapshots in the movie..

The last pic is my favorite,

I think this is what they are talking to each other:

The penguin on the right was saying,

"Hey, check this out, I'm flying.....~lalala.."

And the middle penguin said..

"Yea right, you are fat, how can you fly?"

The penguin on the left said,

"Oh boyy,,penguins can't fly lah..

I assure you, when you finished watching the video,

you'll feel inspired by the penguins..

They are the cutest.....!

Oh, and here's the trailer..

Enjoy watching!

Dare to be different

2011-04-08T20:56:00.008+10:00

Imagine this situation.

You have a party to attend, and you dressed up specially for the event. When you walked through the door, suddenly everyone is staring at you. You were shocked and embarrassed as well. You looked around the room, everyone else are dressed formally while you are dressed as a pumpkin! You taught it was a costume party! If it was a costume party, no one would take a second look at you as everyone else will wear costumes too. But, in this case, you stand out from everybody else and every people stared at you like you came from another planet. Some even laughed at you. Just because, you are different than everybody .

That's the case where you involuntarily i.e you didn't know about the details of the party and thus, you didn't actually choose to be different. How about when you already know that it's a formal party and you still wear the costume? Because you just like to wear it and you've been wearing it to other events as well.

Well, the example, seems a bit hyperbolic [who would wear a pumpkin costume?].

But still I hope I made my point clear....hee..

Being different make us stand out from others. Being different makes people noticed.

So, it's not necessarily bad to be different. For example, in the case of doing an interview for a job. Hundreds of applicants will be applying the same position. Everybody has the same qualification and the same passion for the job. So, how do the interviewer make the choice? They'll choose someone that has something different from others.

Now let us relate this to being a Muslim. It's obvious when we go to the country where Muslims are not the majority, Muslims will stand out from others especially Muslim women because of our hijab. But, does that mean we have to be embarrassed with our difference? No. Instead, it's something that we should be proud of. We should be proud to say that we are Muslim to the whole world [This reminds of the story, "My name is Khan, and I'm not a terrorist"...hee...^^]. Our hijab is our identity and that made us special and different from others. Instead of feeling like it's an obligation, I think we should think that it's a present from Allah to make us feel special cause we are different. Different in a good way :)

I had few encounters where people asked me why I wear the hijab. And it makes me feel proud to tell them that I'm a Muslim. One of them didn't even know that Islam exist. The person thought I'm wearing hijab because of my culture. To me, that's the valuable experience when studying overseas. I can say that the experience here made me appreciate Islam more. It also open up my eyes and see Islam from a different perspective.

I admit, when I first came here, I felt awkward about praying in the open place in front of other people. I felt awkward trying to make wudhu on the sink. I felt conscious about what people

would think of me when I walk into class because I look different from everybody else . Now, Alhamdulillah, I feel more comfortable in doing all those things. And I'm happy that indirectly we can also spread Islam to other people .

[image taken from here]

try listen to this

2011-04-07T21:48:00.003+10:00

Try listen to this..:)

I just love it!

Dilemma

2011-04-06T09:05:00.002+10:00

I don't like being pull in two directions. You know, like you have to choose between two things..=_=

Both are equally important, but how do you make the right choice? Haishh..

For days, I've been trying to look for some answers. In Kuliah Selasa yesterday, they talk about taking risk and making decision. And there's this verse in the Qur'an which said,

..And when you have come to a decision place your trust in God alone, for He loves those who place their trust in Him (Al-'Imran 3:159)

Ya Allah, give me your guidance for indeed I am helpless without your help. At a time like this, I wish somebody could do the decision for me. But that's not the way it is. People always said, "Follow your heart". Can someone please teach me how to follow our heart? [I knowwww, it's not something that can be taught.] I'm just curious to see if someone has a solution..hee. Do let me know if you do :)

It's been pretty hectic for me these days. Endless stream of assignments. Thank God, I have no mid-sem test except for one subject. And the assignments, two of them are group assignments, so, it's pretty complicated since we had to collaborate together with other group members. It's hard to find a common time for all of us to sit together and discuss the assignments. That's the challenge I guess. Another thing is, when you are busy preparing for tutorials and doing your assignments, you can hardly find a time for you to do your independent studies. Yup, that's my problem right now,, I need extra TIME!!! =_= [Again, I'm asking for something impossible..heh]

Enough with my rambling. Sorry, this is just one of my way of getting out the feelings that I have. Hmm, in the end, I still have a decision to make!! Wish me the best! ^_^

story of honest people :)

2011-03-19T11:57:00.006+11:00

I've not always bees so careless..(at least, i don't think i am >_<)

But, lately I've been clumsy and careless..=_=

One evening,two weeks ago, I lost my phone at the university tennis court.

I think it slipped off my bag or my pocket. After finished playing, I went around and looked for it.

But, I couldn't find it. So, I decided to just go home. My coach asked me if there's anything wrong, and I told him about my lost phone. He said he'll helped me look for it. I thanked him, and I walked back home.

I can't actually described my feeling. I know the phone is not as valuable as an iPhone or Blackberry.

I sort of feel a bit uneasy but not really depressed about it. I don't like to stress myself. So, I thought to myself that if the worst case happen, I'll just use my other phone that I brought from Malaysia. I don't know why but I had a strong feeling that somebody will find the phone.

At home, I tried to phone my lost phone few times hoping that somebody will hear the ringing and found it. And later that night, I told my mother about it. My mother of course was worried and asked me if I already cancelled the sim card. And, I actually forgot to do that =_=. And I said I'll call the company next morning as it was already late at night. My mom persuade me to call them that night, as she's afraid somebody might stole the phone and use it.

So, I tried to phone the customer service, but as I suspected nobody answered. So, I decided to just call next morning. Next morning, I went to class and during the break, I called the customer service again but, no answer..heh. To save the trouble and not wasting time waiting for them to answer, I decided to just go to the shop and cancel the sim card there after I finished class. So, I was on my way to the shop when I suddenly thought of going to the sport centre first to see if somebody had found the phone. I went to the counter and asked the lady there. Andddd,,,Alhamdulillah,,,thank God...an honest person, had found it and gave it to them..:) At that time, I'm just thankful to Allah and glad that there's still an honest person in this world. I know how lucky I am because I lost my phone once and I never got it back..

Another story is about the similar experience but it was not my phone this time. It was something more valuable than that.

I was at the ERC to do my assignment. I borrowed the laptop from the counter and sat at a table to do my assignment. We can borrow the laptop up to 3 hours, and as I had no class that morning, I sat at the ERC for almost 3 hours. As I went to return the laptop to the counter, I saw on the counter a pink purse. I was quite shocked as it looked the same as mine, and I looked twice from far and yup, that definitely looked exaclty like my purse. I checked at my bag, oh crap..I lost my purse and I didn't even realised it was MISSING!!!!!!!! (>_____<)"

I said to the person at the counter, "Ermm,,I think that's mine". She didn't look really convincing as I said it really casually. So, she checked my ID with my driving license in the wallet. And yup, sure enough..it was indeed my purse.. She said to me, "You are really lucky." I said thanks to her and I walked away as I was so quite shocked from the experience. It was happening really fast. Now, I feel really bad as I should really thanked that person or whoever that found the purse. When I was walking away to my class, it really hit me that it would be really bad if I lost the purse. Inside the purse was almost everything..ID, money, debit card..and all sort of valuable things. As compared to my phone, I valued my purse more. I'm really, really thankful at that time. This is another way of Allah showing me to be thankful and grateful for Him, and for the honest person that still exist in this world.

One important lesson that I learnt from here is that, we know Allah watch over everything that we're doing and He will always take care of us..but, we should not take granted of what we have. Of course we know nothing will happen without the will from Allah. But first, we must put an effort to do our best, tawakkal and put trust in Him. Just like a hadith I once heard..

One day Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) noticed a Bedouin leaving his camel without tying it and he asked the Bedouin, “Why don’t you tie down your camel?” The Bedouin answered, “I put my trust in Allah.” The Prophet then said, “Tie your camel first, then put your trust in Allah” (At-Tirmidhi).

I'll be more careful next time,,InshaAllah. And hopefully you can learn something too.

a thought, a reminder

2011-03-14T18:33:00.006+11:00

Day by day, we're alarmed by horrific and sad news from all over the world.

Let me recall few weeks back to the big flood in Queensland, cyclone yasi in Queensland too, then the earthquake in Christchurch, and floods I heard in some parts of Malaysia. And then this earthquake plus tsunami in Japan.

Some might say, "Oh that's just the nature of the world" [somewhere along the line.]

But, to those who believed in God, will know that it's a sign. A warning perhaps from our Creator.

These things happen, to wake us up.. to show us that He is the Greatest and He will make things happen if He wanted to. Just like what He did to all the perished nations of 'Ad, Tsamud and others. We might think, "Oh, this is just a small sign. We still have lots of time till the Day of Judgement." But, the truth is, it can happen this Friday. If Allah wanted to, He will make it happen.

Okay, you might think..."This Friday? I still have few more days. To amend my mistakes and make my taubah." But, maybe tomorrow, the next minute, or the next second, Allah can take our life away in the blink of an eye..even before the Day of Judgement. At that time, we realised, if only..if only Allah give me more time..to make good deeds, to make my taubah, to be a better muslim..it's too late. It's too late.

I'm writing this to myself. To remind myself of those time I wasted. Maybe, this will help to remind you too. That our time left in this world is really, really short. Make the BEST from what's left in this world and prepare ourselves for the hereafter. InshaAllah.

"Lord, guide us to the right path, the path of those to whom You have granted blessings, those who are neither subject to Your anger nor have gone astray." (Al-Fatihah :6-7)

one at a time

2011-03-02T00:51:00.003+11:00

Sometimes,

when there seems to be lots of things to be done,

take a deep breath and take one step at a time.

Stressing out is neither good to you nor will it get things done.

Another key point is patience.

One day, everything will turn out to be alright.

One day, everything will fall back into places.

One at a time :)

In the mean time,

put a big smile on your face..

and pray for God's help to ease our pathway.

Cause He won't burden us beyond our capability.

Get those brain works and your hands dirty,

solving one problem at a time.

An extra hand is always helpful.

Faster and easier.

Less things to worry about

and bigger smile on our faces..^_^

today my life begins

2011-02-07T06:56:00.005+11:00

Wake up and look out your window. What did you see?

I see, blue orangish sky with soft fluffy cloud.

I bet everybody can also see this during the sunrise.

No matter where, no matter when..sunrise is the same everywhere in the world.

I think waking up to see the sunrise is the best way to start the day.

Along with a cup of warm coffee or tea. Or in my case, milk..:P and some biscuits.

It would be perfect if I can hear the birds chirping, but the moment I step outside..

brrrr..it's freezingggg..! btw, it's summer.(o_O")

Looking through my window, I can't help but thinking..

If everyone wake up and watch the sunrise,

and really appreciate the peacefull-ness and the tranquility..

the world would be a better place.

Instead of waking up and thinking about the evil plan to destroy the world and innocent people,

their mind would forget about it, and begin their day with calmness in their heart.

Don't you think so?

[or maybe those people don't sleep at all and busy plotting their evil master plan

and forgot to appreciate God's creation.]

Anyway, Alhamdulillah, praise Allah the Almighty for giving us another day to live..

to see this beautiful sunrise, to appreciate His creation, to begin my life..:)

Hopefully, you will too.

[the view from my window]

[on the airplane back to Melbourne. the best view ever..:)]

things do happen for a reason

2011-02-04T11:26:00.002+11:00

what have i been saying all these while? look up at the welcome note.

yup. things do happen for a reason.

you never actually believed that until it did happen to you, right?

well, i think i've experienced this in these few weeks.

let me tell you a story.

first thing, back in malaysia, i received an sms saying my flight on the 15th of february had been cancelled due to some reasons. so, airasia said that we can rebook the flight at any date that i want without any extra fees. so, i was quite shocked and a lil bit angry as well.

then, the next thing i know, i'm moving out from my apartment in melbourne. so, i have to find a new house before 14 feb.

and then, there's some issue with my studies which i have to resolve as soon as possible.

so, that's why i end up going back to melbourne earlier since the previous flight i've booked has been cancelled.

i also end up getting on the same flight as my cousin.

as a result of going back to melbourne earlier, i managed to find a new house, settled in and resolved my issues.

plus, i got to go to the Australian Open! and experienced the summer in Melbourne!

see, things do happen for a reason. sometimes, the reason that we never expected :P

so, when things doesn't seem to go the way that we planned..don't be too disappointed as better things might happen in the future as a result of the event.

so, people..cheer up! :)

time to write again

2011-01-04T22:36:00.002+11:00

It's been a long time since I wrote the last post.

Yup, I know you missed me, so I write this post for you! ;)

Just to remind myself,,it's 2011 already!

I kept on thinking it's still 2010..heh =_= grow up fairuz!

my sisters had gone back to school already.....:(

i'm going to be loneelllyyy in this house...[i can't believe i'm saying this]

i miss them alreadyyy..huaaa.

there's nobody else in this house that i can bully..:((

u kiddos,,blajar rajin2 ea. jangan nakal2..

do ur best, put trust in Him and insyaAllah He will help us.

Remember that everything happens for a reason.

So, be strong, k!

I've nothins else to write.

Going back to melbourne earlier than planned.

a nice journey

2010-11-29T09:32:00.003+11:00

Yesterday, I flew to Brisbane by myself! that's quite an achievement for me! considering the fact that I've never fly alone. So, there's always the first time of everything. I think my mom didn't know about that. She thought I was flying with sara and her sis. But, due to some changes, their flight was in the afternoon, while mine was scheduled in the evening. Anyway, it was a great flight despite the smell of red wine drank by the women next to me. I sat near the window by the way, and quite near to the wing. So, I can enjoy the fantastic view of the cloud, the sky and the land beneath. I managed to capture some photos..:P

Look, how small we are from the sky. To think that human has the power to control the world is just so overrated. There's a bigger power up there watching our every single move.

Look at those soft fluffy clouds. Aren't they beautiful? Subhanallah..:)
I came across this verse this morning..

"See you not that Allah drives the clouds gently, then joins them together, then makes them into a heap of layers, and you see the rain comes forth from between them. And He sends down from the sky hail (like) mountains, (or there are in the heaven mountains of hail from where He sends down hail), and strike therewith whom He will, and averts it from whom He wills. The vivid flash of its (clouds) lightning nearly blinds the sight.(An-Nur 24:43)"

After I touched down at Brisbane airport, I took a train to the central where Hasanah was picking me up. While on the train, suddenly in the middle of nowhere, the train stopped and there was a blackout for a while. It was quite scary. Luckily, I'm not the only one on the train.
Many thoughts has penetrated my mind at that time.
I thought about a movie trailer I saw once about the train killer who diverted the train to another place and killed the passengers. Pretty scary huh? Haha.
I laughed at myself thinking how stupid I am to think about something like that.
In a time like this, there's no one else we can hope for help but Allah.
So, I prayed to Allah, hoping it will all be fine.
And it was fine. The train recovered and I reached the central safely.
Alhamdulillah..:)

:)

2010-11-25T10:35:00.003+11:00

Can't believe that I've finished my first year already!
And I'm officially on break for three months.
that's a longgg holiday..

How did my exam go?
hmm, you know me.
Once I've finished my exam, I don't talk about it..
I did my best, we'll just see the result..:)
Right now I can just pray n tawakal to Allah.

People always say that I'm a very optimistic person.
To me, I just think that.. why wasting time being pessimistic?
Don't you think that it will only be a burden to your heart..
that you'll constantly worrying about something??

Why not look forward for something else in the future..
rather than worrying about the past?
Cause we definitely can't go back to the past,,
instead, we'll encounter the future..insyaAllah.

But, of course, we have to learn from the past..
and make adjustments for your future.
Just like if you fall, you'll get back up again!
You may have some injuries when you fall, you may cry if it hurts..
but, that'll make you even stronger.

Remember when you were small,
I don't know for you but I did fall once in a while..
and I got minor bruises and cuts. I even got some stitches on my forehead.
And I also remember, I'll cry or wail or scream to be exact.
because when I was that little, it probably really hurts to get a minor cut on your knee.
but then, after my mom put some cute "handiplus" on it.
I'll be up running again. Like nothing had happened..;)

Do you realise, that as we get older,
if we get a cut or some bruises, we didn't cry or scream like a little kid anymore?
Why? because we're stronger than before.
because we've experienced a bigger pain than just a little cut on our knee.
So, why can't we just get up and spring back to life when something bad happened?

Anyway, these are just my train of thoughts..You can like it or hate it
and I don't really care.:P
Oh and here somethings I wanna share too. I think I've wrote this before.

"Allah burdens not a person beyond his scope... " (Al-Baqarah:286)

Till then, have a great day..:D

oh..oh..

2010-11-23T16:50:00.004+11:00

After finished linear algebra last wednesday,,
I was so excited to study for my last paper..yea!
Yes, I was determined to put 110%.
So, I've been like this, these past few days..

No joke.haha.
I don't think I've ever studied this hard in my entire life.
It was only because I am so so so scared of this last paper..
I have no idea what I've learned about this subject throughout the semester.

I have lots of encouragement from the people around me,,
and also from my family..

those encouragements keep me going on.
none of them actually dance with pom2 like that..
though i'd like to imagine they did..:P it helps.
thank you all..^^

but, u know me..
I can't focus on something for too long.
after days n nights of studying,,
i think I've become nuts
that i started talking to myself..

tomorrow, is THE DAY!!
and I'm..

yup, u get the idea..

So, I've tried to take of my mind from the exam..
and looking forward to something else..
such as the Harry Potter 7 ..
and brissy..
and Malaysia..
and many things....

that really helps keep me calm..
SO tomorrow,,
I'm going to the exam hall in the evening..
feeling confidence knowing that I've tried my best..
and Allah will help me through it..;)

So, bring it on!!

The next time you'll see me blogging..
is when I've finished my exam..!!
[or not.maybe tomorrow morning if I'm feeling all nervous again I'll write.:P]

so, till then...
Pray for me..k!

ps: emoticons are purposely for the dramatic effect. and I found it cute.:P
I know u're smiling :) so do I.

three more days

2010-11-21T10:59:00.004+11:00

Three more days, and it's done..*big grin*
But, in the mean time, still need to study..i have a lot more to cover..=_=*sigh*
but, the feeling of excitement is just so overwhelming inside me...*another big grin*
there are lots of things going on inside my brain..kih2.
Lots of things need to be done before going back to Malaysia.
Now that I think about it, it's kinda sad leaving Australia..hehe. Don't get me wrong, I do miss Malaysia.:)
Most of my seniors are going back to Malaysia for good this year.
Although we've only known each other for not even a year, they are much like my own family, like big sisters that I've always wanted..spoiling their little sisters.*grinning*
It's sad that we weren't able get to know each other more. But, I learnt a LOT from them.
I'm gonna miss them A LOT.
I feel that time past by too fast. It seems like just yesterday I arrived in Melbourne but now, I almost finished my first year..
I hate saying goodbyes, but I want to wish them all the best in their future undertakings.
Some of them are getting married end of this year, which is so exciting..It's like your own big sisters are getting married. How exciting is that? :P

But you know, time wait for no one. Friends come and go, but the 'ukhuwah' will still be strong, InsyaAllah..That's all that I can hope for.

i'm truly impressed

2010-11-17T16:52:00.003+11:00

Have you watched the finale of Junior MasterChef?? If you did..then, you know what I'm talking about.
Man,, I'm so jealous. I was a bit sad my favourites are not the finalist..but, it doesn't really matter cause I love Jack n Isabella too. They were really awesome! Truly great cook. Isn't it amazing that at such young age, they already know what they want to do in the future?? and they really..really had a go for it..?
Well, let me tell you something, when I was a kid, you know we had to fill up those some sort of report card or something at school..and they asked you to list down the top three list of what we want to be when we grow up. Do you have that? or is it only in my school? Anyway, u must have thought about it when you were a kid right?? And I remembered one of the things I wrote was to be a contractor [this is hugely inspired by my dad of course.what can i say, i'm daddy's little girl ;)] and what else..hmm.maybe a teacher or something.. I'm sure all of you had wanted to be something when you were a kid..an astronaut, a doctor, a fireman, a policeman, a superman..yup, you know that..:D

That day I called my mom and we chat a lil' and then our conversation came across this.

Mama : Mama ingat lagi dulu yan pernah cakap kat mama nak keje kat SAJ bile dah besar..kan? [btw, SAJ is Syarikat Air Johor]
Me : Haha,,, ye ke? tu bukan ira ke? [ i seriously didn't remember this.:P]
Mama : Ye la kot. Eh, entah la..antara korang dua orang la..
Me : Haha. Ntahlah yan pun xingat.heheh. maybe kot. *more giggling*

So, my point is..kids have their own interpretation of what they want to do when they grow up. And mostly they will be influenced by the people around them, by the one they look up to. It's pretty funny to think about those old days..[haish,,feeling pretty old already.=_=]

Back to the masterchef thing. Yup, they make me feel like I'm moving in a senseless direction. I mean, I'm not even sure what I want to be. If you said to me do what you love to do.. then I'll say I love to do so many things..drawing, scribbling, designing things, reading, writing, being a part of an organizing team, helping people, volunteering, getting to know other people, traveling, taking pictures, baking, cook a lil bit,..and the list goes on and on.. :P See, I'm confused with all these vast interest I had...and I truly don't know to go in which direction.
That's when Allah came to help. He knows what best for us. Of course, Allah wants the best for us or else, why would He create us?
But, to get His help, we must pray and obey His orders, right?

So, I'm depending on His guidance to what's best for me. We didn't know what's best for us. Just like one of the ayat in Al-Qur'an which I wrote so many times already..:)

"..and it maybe that you dislike a thing which is good for you and you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know.." (Al-Baqarah:216)

What I can say is, we planned, we made an effort, but God make it happen. So, I'm here now in Aussie, studying in University of Melbourne. That happened for a reason. And for now, I'm gonna do my best in my studies.. no matter which route I took..even if I'm not sure what I want to do in the future..I know Allah had planned something for me far ahead. And I just have to work for it with what I have now..:) Maybe I'll own a big company one day, who knows? haha.

This post is mainly about encouragement to those who still have their exams or who will take their exams in the near future..or who had already finished their exams..or who feel a bit down due to certain things..so, hope this post will give you something to ponder upon..cheers! ;)

a quick one ;)

2010-11-16T07:46:00.002+11:00

okay i know, i have a paper in less than less than two hour. hee~
but,,just want to grab this opportunity to wish happy 'aidiladha!

'aidiladha is all about sacrificing..like the story of Prophet Ibrahim and his son Prophet Ismail..
so, today I'm sacrificing my time of celebration of 'aidiladha to go for exams.[hehe, doesn't actually makes sense since the exam is mandatory.haha]

anywayyy,,a quick reflection to ourselves..what have we sacrificed for Allah, for our deen??
a reminder for you and me in this bright and peaceful morning..:)

Okay, I'm gonna prepare all the stuffs to take for my Accounting exam this morning.

"Allahumma yassir wa la tu'assir"
(O Allah: Make things easier for me and don't make them difficult)

i'm losing it

2010-11-12T23:01:00.004+11:00

no, i'm not losing my mind..[alhamdulillah for that.] i'm losing my focus. haish.=_="
there are three more papers to go! come on fairuz!! macroeconomics was sort of okay i guess.
my definition of okay here means..i survived through the exam..so, that's a good sign, rite?

the next paper will be on tuesday and wednesday morning..which will be the accounting and linear algebra exams. [wish me luck!] looks like i'm gonna celebrate my 'hari raya qurban' with my head buried in the exam papers..:( in this building..
oh, btw, that's where my examinations take place.the name is Royal Exhibition Building in Carlton Garden next to Melbourne Museum. pretty cool rite?? though actually, those flowers are not there right now.[that's too bad.] but,it still looks pretty cool :). most of the melbourne uni students took the exams here..so, u can imagine how many of us will be swarming in front of the building before the exams start..and when the invigilators call out to go inside..we will be rushing to go inside and finding our seats..settling down..arranging pencils or pens on the table..calming down..it's a pretty good experience i must say.

when we finished the paper..for me, no matter how the exams went..good or bad..after stepping outside from the building..i'll feel calm and relax looking at the trees and flowers outside the building..subhanallah..:D
and to complement with the feelings..a cone of ice cream will be a great choice..so, we'll stop by at il dolce which sells the best ice cream u'll ever taste :D that's the part of the exams experience which i like so far...ehheh..\(^.^)/

anywayyyy...enough bout exams.
i can't wait to go back home.seriously. and to go to brissy!
my sisters are all back from their hostels. huu..

it's okay.it's okay. take a deep breath..phewhhh..
put a big smile..:) yes, i'm alright now. v(^.^) peace!

wohoo. it's here.

2010-11-08T18:59:00.004+11:00

after a longgg waiting,,the final exams is finally here..[well,tomorrow to be exact]
i feel excited and nervous at the same time. though i think the proportion of excitement is bigger than the proportion of nervous-ment [hee,couldn't think of the appropriate word for this]

tomorrow, i'll be going for a war!! yeah! [heh.i'm definitely a bit over excited here]
insyaAllah, i hope and pray that everything will go on smoothly..
may Allah give me His guidance and help me through this battle..amin~

truthfully speaking, the paper that i'm most worried about is the actuarial paper which will be the last paper...on the 24th on november.
my other two paper will be on the 16th and 17th on november..
and judging on previous experience, i tend to lose focus towards the end of the exams..the last paper.
hopefully, it's not going to happen this time. i need to score in this paper. ya Allah, please give me strength until the end..:)

so for now fairuz..stop thinking about holidays and malaysia..focus on what's more important okay!!
deep breath. in..out..3x. fuhh.

warning: i think more posts will keep on coming during the exams weeks.

[image credit to ~yeekeru10 who happens to be someone i know ;)]
http://yeekeru10.deviantart.com/art/imtihan-malay-only-113169419?q=boost%3Apopular+imtihan&qo=3

chocs n exams

2010-11-03T16:41:00.006+11:00

chocs n exams?? what's the relation u might ask?
well, some people will say coffees n exams are positively related to each other..but for me, it's chocs n exams.
the more nearer to exams,,the more chocs i consumed..
the reason being is for my not liking coffee that much is.. i hate the smell of coffee that will linger in the mouth after the consumption.yekk.
And i'll get a headache if the coffee is a strong one.
And i don't think the caffeine worked in preventing me from sleeping.=_=
but, i do drink cappucino or mocha or nescafe once in a while..

so, my substitution from coffee is chocolate!
hmm,,chocs doesn't really help in preventing me from sleeping either..heh.
sumtimes it helps...but most of the time no..
but, i just love eating it while studying..
and other time also.heh.
truth is, i love chocs, no matter when or where i am :P
if i buy a big bar of cadbury chocolate, i can finish it in a day.
no kidding. but, i'll restrain from finishing it.
it'll cost me to buy another one. $_$
unless somebody is kind enough to buy one for me.*wink*

hmm, now that i think about it..
i just love eating sweet stuffs. \(^_^)/
or.....
i think..i just love eating..n munching..ANYTHING...
hmm.bigger problem.

ps:this is a post i made between a break from studying. that'll explain the weirdness of this post.hee.
oh, look at the time. enough babbling..:P need to get back to studying.ciao!

it's that time of the year.

2010-10-29T14:18:00.004+11:00

it's that time of the year where people can get a little cranky and tense. well, for some ppl, not me though. i hope so. i'll put up a nice bright smile for everybody even if i'm not in the mood.yes, i'll do that ;)

actually, i don't really like exams especially the period before and during the exams. BUT, i do love the period after the exams though *wink*.
well, what can i do...it's the circle of life. and this is one of many other challenges i have to face.
i can't run, can i?no, i'll stick around and fight. i'm not a coward.
[in my condition right now,i'm not physically fit anyway:P i'll ran out of breath.]

so, i have to get in the mood then. the mood of being nerdy.o_O
be more focus. yes. and pray and ask for Allah's guidance and blessings.InsyaAllah.

i wish i can do a lot more better this semester, cuz i did badly last semester.=_=
so, ppl..let's get nerdy..:D [haha, this sounds so lame.]

good luck to all those who will sit for exams too! i wish you all the best! :)

ps: i can't wait to go to brissy and fly back home.(^_^)v should i do a countdown? nahh,,focus fairuz,,focus!! (=____=") okeyyyyy.....

oh, here's a video i found inspiring and cute too..;)
just a quick random shout out : "I love my mom and dad!! They are the BEST!!"

otak tepu

2010-10-17T21:58:00.003+11:00

sebenarnye, ade ke istilah otak tepu? rase xde.heheh. tapi, tu yg menggambarkn ape yg sy rase skarang.=_=" ni belum exam lagi. btw, ade lagi 2 study weeks, then swot-vac pastu baru final exam. ohh, lambat kan............ade org yg abis exam kteorg xstart exam lagi.heh.>__< tape2,,sabar2..that means,,more time to study...alhamdulillah..:D

what i meant by otak tepu is,,i attended a 2-day course called "Real Deal"..it's about fiqh in business transactions..[how do we do business transactions according to Islam] organised by Al-Kauthar organisation. I know, the topic is not really interesting to sum ppl, but considering that i'm studying commerce and i really has little knowledge about these sorts of stuffs,,so, i thought..well,,this is a one chance in a lifetime..And, coincedentally, the course which normally charged $95 was given for free this time ;) [that's not the main reason why i came though :P]

Basically the speaker, Tawfiq Chowdury talked about things such as contracts in business, riba, insurance, investment, mortages, credit cards, loans.and many2 things.. what's interesting is, he will constantly related the things he said with Islam and how do Islam view certain scenarios in business transactions.. One main point pointed out by the speaker is of course about riba and how riba can happen in a way sometimes we don't even now it's riba..such as late payment for bills or buying a coupon or discount card...and also, there's so many new things, new words that i learnt during this course. so, maybe u can check out this website: alkauthar.org to find out about this course and many other courses they organised. One thing in business that was mentioned by the speaker is that everything in business trading is halal until it's proven to be haram.

it has been a great experience..and it has definitely broaden my knowledge esp in islamic banking n finance..:) and also raise my awareness in riba. because i do admit that i never really take this thing serious before this. He mentioned that, in one of the hadith, it is mentioned that riba is worst than committing zina 36 times.. Imagine how bad it is to do riba. but, look around us,,we're surrounded by riba.... that also make me think that i'm actually learning how to calculate those interests...which is riba of course....hmmmmmmmm.....hmmmmm.....[thinking long n hard] oh and also, just to share with you the main hadith for riba.... "Gold for gold, silver for silver, wheat for wheat, barley for barley, salt for salt, the same quantity for the same quantity, hand in hand".
Honestly, I'm not confident to explain about this in the blog, because i'm afraid i'll tell something which is not right..and there's so much explanation to do that i'm afraid it'll led to more confusion. waa,,,many apologies for that..insyaAllah, when I had gathered more information, i'll share it here.okey?

before signing off,,i just want to share a verse from the Qur'an for you to ponder:

"Believers, if you help God, He will help you and make you steadfast in your faith"
"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Jika kamu menolong (agama) Allah, nescaya Dia akan menolongmu dan meneguhkan kedudukanmu" (Surah Muhammad, 47:7)

So, if we spend time to gain knowledge on our religion or spend time to spread Islam or anything at all, for Islam..insyaAllah..He will help us..:)

tc! (^_____^)v
oh, n all the best for exams!

sharing is caring

2010-10-08T23:31:00.004+11:00

Who in the world came out with that phrase? Honestly, how do people say the right thing at the right time? and the words sound cool too. I'm referring to those amazing impromptu speakers whose words are quoted by other people, years and years, generations after generations..amazing..right?

Now, those are words from people. How about words from God? Won't it be more amazing?
Yes. You don't trust me? Pick up a Qur'an and start reading it. I mean really read it and understand word by word. If you don't understand Arabic, it's fine. I don't too. There are Qur'an with translations. Although I must say, I wish I can understand Arabic. And I'm in the process of learning :) Understanding the language will give us more understanding of the Qur'an because Arabic is such a beautiful language.

Now, the Qur'an to me is like some sort of a motivational book. The best one I've read. Whenever I'm feeling down or something, I read the Qur'an and I find myself feeling better. Because, the words that I read is an actual word from God..Subhanallah..:)
Now, I want to share few verses that I love from the Qur'an. Sharing is caring. :P

'If any of My servants ask you (Muhammad) about me,tell them that the Lord says, " I am near; I accept the prayers of those who pray." Let My servants answer My call and believe in Me so that perhaps they may know the right direction.' (Al-Baqarah 2:186)

'...you may not like something which, in fact, is for your own good and something that you may love, in fact, may not be good for you. God knows, but you do not know.' (Al-Baqarah 2:216) 'God does not impose on any person responsibility beyond his ability.....' (Al-Baqarah 2:286)

'Hasten to obtain forgiveness from your Lord and to qualify yourselves for Paradise. Paradise, vast as the heavens and the earth, is prepared for the pious, who spend their property for the cause of God in prosperity as well as in adversity and who also harness their anger and forgive the people. God loves the righteous ones. Paradise is also for those who when committing a sin or doing injustice to themselves, remember God and ask Him to forgive their sins. Who can forgive sins besides God? And who do not knowingly persist in their mistakes?' (Al-'Imran 3:133-135)

'If God is your helper, no one can defeat you. However, if He abandons you, who would help you? The true believers trust in God' (Al-'Imran 3:160)

'For a single good deed, one will be rewarded tenfold. But the recompense for a bad deed will be equal to that of the deed and no injustice will be done to anyone.' (Al-An'am 6: 160)

'After every difficulty, there is relief. Certainly, after every difficulty, there comes relief." (Al-Insyirah 94:5-6)

You know, I could go on and on with the list. There's just so many beautiful words from God.
So, after this..if you had a bad day..instead of getting angry and moody at innocent people around you..I suggest, read the Qur'an..with a sincere heart and feelings. InsyaAllah, God will guide you.
It's 12.54 am. and I think I need a sleep. So, till then..take care of yourselves for me will you? ;)

ps: now, in aussie..i really get the meaning of TGIF (thank God it's Friday). people are just going crazy over the weekend..i can hear sounds of sirens every now and then. well, another saying by some people i dunno. "when it's time to work, work hard..when it's time to play, play hard.." woohoo,,these people must have really worked hard ;)

life is not all about you

2010-10-06T19:59:00.003+11:00

It hit me. I always take things for granted. Astaghfirullah..

Fairuz,
Say Alhamdulillah for all 'nikmat' Allah gives you.
Be patient if something goes wrong.
"Allah won't burden someone beyond his ability.." (2:286)
Think about other people on the other side of the world who suffered much more than you.
While you are struggling with exams and life as a student..
other people on the other side of the world are struggling just to keep being alive.

My aunty is in Palestine right now. She's under the mission "Viva Palestina Malaysia" to break the siege of Gaza. May Allah give them strength, protect them and help them to succeed in their mission.
She post some updates on the mission in this blog http://azratogaza.blogspot.com/

It amazed me, how strong she is, to leave her family (my uncle and my four cousins) to go on this mission. I pray she'll come home safely.

I wish I can be as strong as she is to stand for Islam.

Hopefully, after this, I can change myself, to care more about my brothers and sisters around me and around the world. Life is not all about you, fairuz.

ps; there's a seminar on Palestine this Saturday. Jom!

super duper happy

2010-10-03T13:12:00.009+11:00

Alhamdulillah, all praise to God the creator of the heaven and the earth..:) I'm super duper happy, [although my break is about to end].Shush,,don't ruin the mood now..
Okay, let me start with friday..
My housemates and I organised an open house..[open rooftop to be exact :P]. Yes, it was tiring. But, it went great!! Alhamdulillah. We prayed that in won't rain..and it was a beautiful day that day..:D
Thanks everyone for coming. Hope you guys enjoy the food!! And also special thanks to my housemates who worked hard..thanks to our main chef,,Nadd who made the super delicious soto and lodeh..
Thanks to sara, who made the drinks, and cut the fruits, decorate the flowers, and escorting the guests. Also thanks to mazni, who made the yummy "sate goreng", and helps a lot in the kitchen. You guys rock! haha.

[guests and foods!]

[desserts section!]

[sunset!!^^]

On Saturday, I went to Tulip Festival!! It was really beautiful. MashaAllah..:)

Oh, i love taking pictures of flowers and kids..(^^). Aren't they the cutest?? [I want that hat too!!! and cute flowery dress.heheh.] While I was trying to capture a picture of one of the kids, the mother looked at me like I was going to kidnap her daughter or something..so, she took her daughter's hand and walk away from me.haha. More pics are uploaded in fb. Those who haven't been there, you should go. Trust me, it was definintely worth it..:)

And today,,marked the end of my holiday. I played basketball this morning. It's been so long since I played. And I jog only about 100m then I went out of breath..aaahh,,I'm definitely out of shape.huu..:( too lazy too exercise.=.=

Today, there's this malaysian festival. And I'm too lazy to go..>_< waa.

inspiration ;)

2010-09-26T21:13:00.003+10:00

when it comes to cook..

let's face this, i'm not that great at it.
though i think i might enjoy it..:)
what so good about cooking is that,,
after u went to all those troubles..
when seeing others eating what u cooked without a complain..
it makes your heart jumps with joy..v(^.^)v
victory!haha.
now, i can understand why is it that everytime i asked my mom..
"nape mama makan sikit sgt?"
and she will always answered.."mama dah kenyang dah.."
when instead she haven't ate a single thing before hand.
i think, maybe..just by seeing other people eat what u cooked..
makes all the efforts worth it..and you just don't feel that hungry anymore.
and,, my mom always..
asked me to finished up everything..[which i'm always happy to do]
so, i'll always be the last person on the table..
until the plate is super shiny..*bling2*
my sisters don't always eat a lot.
that's why they're like super skinny.ces.>_<
oh, do bear in mind though..this only happens at home. hehe.:P

so, what i really want to talk about is this new program in tv.
it's called "junior masterchef australia".
before this, they had the competition only for adults.
so, this time, it's for kids aged between 8-12 yrs old!
trust me, they're not ordinary kids..
they make pasta and everything else from scratch..pies, puddings, baklava,
sauces and some type of dishes i've never even heard of..
and to think that i can't even cook a sunny-sided egg perfectly.=_="
plus, with the time pressure,
and the judges n cameras keep coming to the tables to monitor them..
heh. how in the world they do it.

so, they are like my inspiration..
that i can also be a great cook! ahah :P
age and size doesn't matter!
aside from their cooking and skills..
i totally admired their confidence
if it's me, i'll definitely trembles and sweats a lot.
and most probably.. i'll punch the camera or something.
[like those paparazzi one.hehe]

interested? go to this website http://www.masterchef.com.au/home.htm
there's full episodes 1 & 2 for you to watch.
episode 3 just aired tonight, so they'll put it up soon ;)

[cute little cheflings..;)]

kemas

2010-09-20T21:36:00.003+10:00

ohh, i'm bad at keeping things in order.
but, i like things in order.[ha,camne tuh..]
for instance, my study table [which i shared with sara.]
when i get all "semangat"..the table looks really neat..
but things get a bit messy when u know..assignments..tests..
[heh.xde assignment pun kdg2 sepah.konon cm rajin study la :P]

But, i will keep things in order..when i get the BOOST to keep things in order.
[not that BOOST juice,k! ;)]
so, how do i make sure i'll get my BOOST everyday?
hmm,,that's what i'm trying to figure out.
heh.
how i wish i could be like my mom.
always organised.
so, fairuz..stop being lazy..

"I promise!!" (^.^)v

tennis and me ^___^

2010-09-18T20:14:00.009+10:00

oh, i love tennis.
cuz of them?

maybe..
but not entirely bcuz of them though :P
that pic was taken by someone during wimbledon open cuz they are wearing white..:)
you should watch this video promo by rolex for wimbledon cup on youtube.
the music is awesome. i love it.

i'm a fan of both of them. but mostly on nadal.ngeheh.
[actually, i don't really like guy with long hair.but nadal is an exception.haha.]
nadal is a left-handed player, though in real life he's actually a right-handed person.
he can only use his left-hand for tennis.unique huh?
currently nadal rank the no.1 player in the world, and he just won the US open.
federer is also a great player and my dad loves him.
it's always a good match to watch if it's between nadal n federer.
^_^
i started to watch tennis since i was a kid.
mostly because of my father. he loves to play tennis.
he taught me when i was young [uhh,terase tua] with my siblings.
and i still remembered that, whenever i hit the ball,
not only the ball will go flying..the racket will also be flying along with the ball.
hahah.
but, i didn't continue on playing when i grew older.
maybe because of me being away from home at my boarding school :(
however, we still watch some of the games together at home.

now, i took some tennis lessons at uni ;)
it was actually a suggestion by my brother.
and i love it! basically, there will be 10 lessons.
and guess what, our coach is a Malaysian guy.
it was fun!
today i went for the lesson. and we did a bit of rally at the beginning..
forehand, backhand..forehand, backhand..
i'm happy i can hit a few rallies.
although, my backhand was a bit off sometimes.
i'll keep working on it though.
then, we did a volley [yup, like those volleyball].
this is where we are standing quite close to the net
and we hit the ball before the ball hit the ground..
it's okay if you didn't understand though.ehheh.
then, we practised to do some serves..
i think i'm getting better at serving! :)
but i keep on tossing in the wrong direction..=_=
my left hand doesn't seems to coordinate very well.
and also, sean[the coach] said i didn't grip my racket very well.

i hope i can get better by the end of the 10 lessons.
maybe i can play like nadal..=_= heh.
my dad had promised to play with me when i go back home :)
and i also can't wait to have a match with my brother.ahah.

my dad wished to go to the Australian Open. but, it will be on January.
and we will be in Malaysia.
so, maybe another year?? Abah,,belanje me okay???!!
*batting eyelashes*
heheh.

hmm, that's all about tennis and me.
ciao! :P

of puase, raye and open houses

2010-09-15T15:15:00.004+10:00

eyt, happy eid mubarak to u all!
Alhamdulillah, one month of fasting had gone by.
"Taqaballahu minna wa minkum"
Did we get something from Ramadhan? Ask yourself (:
to me, i think this is the BEST Ramadhan I had in my whole life.
why?
because, i had a better understanding of what Ramadhan really is.
now, i can only pray that all my deeds will be accepted by Allah..
and i also hope that i can experience another Ramadhan insyaAllah.

syawal's here!
a celebration of joy after a month of fasting.
first day of syawal..i was really excited to go for 'raya prayer' in the park..
however, Allah knows what best for His creature,,it was raining that morning.
so, we went for the prayer in RMIT.
After finished praying, the rain had stopped..
took some pictures..[of course,heh]
and went back home,,eat some more rendang, kuah kacang,
lodeh and nasi empet made by mazni's mom :)
then, head for class at uni. :P
it was a beautiful morning.not too hot or cold.
on that day itself, we got two open houses invitation!
u think our raya celebration will stop there?
no! the next day, FOUR more open houses..^___^
and the next day,,another one more open house.
wahh,,jealous?? ngeheh.
i think i ate more here than in Malaysia.=_=

and there's more open houses this weekend..
and i bet you there's more to come..
since it's spring break for melbourne uni next week!wee!!
wee again!!

ps:i desperately want a dslr.since my camera is a bit "weng" now.-_-
and the pictures i took are not pweety.*batting eyelashes*..
..[hoping for someone to fall for it and buy me a dslr.heh]

seeking

2010-09-01T22:08:00.004+10:00

Let us seek for the Night..

The Night better than a THOUSAND night..
The Night where the angels and the spirit descend
by the permission of their Lord with His decree..
The Night of peace until the break of dawn..
[Al Qadr, 97:1-5]

Subhanallah..
I read about this one status in my friend's wall in FB,
"Kalau kite bersungguh2 sampai xtido malam tuk siapkan assignment..
knape kite xley wat yg same tuk beribadah??"

It hits me right in the middle of my heart.

Wondering..
Maybe..
because we are afraid that we'll get zero for our assignments?
and that it will affect our results?? etc,,

Here's the catch.

Won't we be evaluated too in the JUDGEMENT DAY?
Whether we've done what Allah has asked us to do..
and stay away from what He forbid us to do.
That's the most important trial in our whole life..
between Heaven or Hell?
Think.Think.Think.

Seeking for knowledge is one of thing Allah command us to do.
Balance is the keyword here.
To ensure that we can succeed in this life and the hereafter.
InsyaAllah, this will be a reminder for me too..:)

Peace! ^_^

flowers, trees and everything...

2010-08-28T16:12:00.005+10:00

"Spring is in the air..
where flowers bloom..
and cricket sings..
and butterflies flutter their wings.
Not to forget the busy buzzing bees..
hopping from a flower to another..
looking for a sip of the sweet nectar..
makes you wonder..and wonder..
How beautiful it is the creation of Allah..~"

Yay! It's spring.
Though I don't really know when exactly the changes of season take place.
I suspect it's nearly spring as flowers begin to peek out from it's hiding place.
you know what..
I think flowers have powers.
That day, while Jen and I was walking..
feeling frustrated from Linear Algebra class..
Then, we saw a glimpse of the tree up there beside the road..
The tree just stand there beautifully will all those flowers blooming..:)
The other trees are still naked but this one is a fast grower i guess.
Immediately our feelings turn from :( to (:

In the same week,
we received a bouquet of flowers..:)
from kak aisya. The pink one. I think they are lillies.
and the cute yellow one in front are the daffodils..
Those, I bought at my uni.
It's a sale for supporting the cancer council of victoria.
Pretty..rite??

See,,I told you.. flowers have powers..:P
To make you feel happy..
Don't you feel happy just by looking at it?
I do.

I can't wait for the spring break to come.
I want to go to the Tulip Festival.
aah..^_________^

I think I'm not a good gardener.
I tried to plant flowers.
But I think it's dead.

hang on.i'll confirm that.
..
..
yup. i just confirmed it.
the flower is dead.
huu.=_='
that's me.lazy person.
*dush2*
or mungkin sbb busy kot. lupe pasal pokok bunge.heh.alasan!

This is the pic from Geelong. I love trees too :)
Trees with leaves.
Trees with flowers.
Trees with no flowers or leaves..
All of them are pretty in my eyes.

Wonderful right. The thought of all of these are create by the one an only God.
Subhanallah..~

It is God who has made the earth as a cradle for you with roads for you to travel.
e has sent water from the sky to produce various pairs of plants (20:53)

Not only He created all those creatures, He also knows everything about them.

He has with Him the keys to the unseen which no one knows besides Him.
He knows all that is in the land and the sea. Not a single leaf falls which He would not know.
No single seed exists even in the darkest places of the land, nor anything in the world either wet or dry, that is not kept recorded in the self-evident Book [Luh Mahfuz] (6:59)

All praise to Allah..the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful..~
Hope you have a Good Day!! ^_^

babbles

2010-08-26T22:15:00.005+10:00

This is the post where I'll blab about random things.

-It's the 16th day of Ramadhan. Time do fly so fast. Slow down, time. No need to hurry, ok!
-It's week 5 in Uni. Nearing to Mid-Sem. Aaaaa.-___-. Aaaa again. This could go on forever.
-I just realised something. I don't understand lots of things. Double Aaah!! Fix it fairuz!
-"Saya penakut." yep. atau low self-esteem?
-I want to learn many things and achieve many things and do many things..is that too much to ask for?
-I love tennis! yeay! a good way to release stress. :)
-I can't express feelings very well. I just hope people can understand instead of me telling them to.
-As much as I like to smile, sometimes, it's hard to do so when your heart is hurting.
-I think I have a sixth sense that can understand someone's feelings.hehe.
-Inferiority itu sudah pasti.
-I don't like to complain. This, can be a bad thing too.
-I think I'm in love with penguins. Aren't they the cutest? \(^^)/ i wanna hug penguins!
-I'm inconsistent!!x_x
-I ate a lot.
-I'm currently eating a chocolate, after I ate some fries, some junk food, and two pieces of bread.+_+
-Hate it when I get my hopes high but end up in disappointment.
-I love my family. I can't wait to go back to Malaysia!!
-I am disorganised. sgt obvious kot.
-Sometimes..no.Most of the times, I planned in my head again and again of what to say to someone about certain things, but end up not saying it. weird?
-I think I want a DSLR. Anyone? hehe.
-Bukankah winter hampir tamat? tp, mengapakah seperti berada di pertengahan winter? Seakan-akan winter xnak berlalu pergi.
-I can make doughnuts! yey! mama shud be very proud rite now.hehe
-Ade mysterious caller just now. A private number.must be from Malaysia. Ingatkn mama ke abah ke.tp bukan. Mungkinkah pdoz atau azie? tp, xpenah2 dieorg call.heh.
-Rase xtenteram n bersalah kalo tgh marah kat seseorg.adesh. so,x nak marah2. tp dalam hati rase sakit hati gak.ha,cmne tu..
-Sy rase sy suke bebel mcm mak-cik2 [Mak sy jarang membebel]. Kasihan housm8 sy.
-Sy nak tido skang, jadi..slamat malam. ;)

a love letter

2010-08-15T07:32:00.005+10:00

To my dear and beloved Ramadhan,

During those 19 years I've lived in this world, I've never quite noticed you before. Truthfully speaking, before this, you were like someone who I knew existed but I didn't really make an effort to know more about you. When we bumped into each other once in a year, I just smiled at you and if you're lucky, sometimes I might said "Hi!" but without further conversation. I knew who you were back then. I knew. But, I just don't have the intention to get to know you for the real you. Forgive me for that, ya Ramadhan.

This year, I've been introduced to you weeks before you came. Weeks before I've finally got to meet you in person. And I've tried to prepare myself. I've many things I planned to do with you. And I wish to fulfill that list. I know, we can only planned but Allah is the one who make it happen. But, it doesn't change the fact that we need to try and make an effort to do what we planned to do.

I heard that there were so many great things happen when you came thousands of year before this. The Muslims fight in Badr, Mecca was opened, the Holy Al-Qur'an was sent down by Allah..and many other great things, subhanallah. I wish I too can achieve great things with you.

Whenever you came along, amazingly, I wanted t0 improve myself to be a better person. So does everyone else. Your presence had affected so many people that everyone wanted to do as many good deeds as they can. But sadly, those goals are just goals and no effort had been done to make it come true.

I took you as granted ya Ramadhan. Now, it strucked me, like the spear that went to Mus'ab bin Umair's chest during Uhud. I don't know if I'll have the chance to meet you again next year. I don't even know if I'm going to meet you tomorrow. This is where I'm wrong all these years. I thought, "Well, next year..next year..I'm going to change myself. Next year, I'm gonna turn over a new leaf." Now, I asked myself. "Why next year? Why not now?".

Oh Ramadhan, how I wish that we can meet you all year round. So, that I can always be cautious in what I'm doing each and every second to get the "berkat" from you Ramadhan. To maintain the momentum until the end of of the period of being with you is hard enough. When in fact, the remaining last days is the most important night of all. It is the night better than a thousand months. The Lailatul Qadr. Because sometimes, I am too focused on Syawal, I forgot about the most important night to be with you. I hope that I'm not going to let that happen again.

And I sincerely hope that, the momentum did not stop after you passed by. I hope when your brothers and sisters..Syawal, Zulkaedah, Zulhijjah, Muharram, Safar, Rabi'ulawal, Rabi'ulakhir, JamadilAwal, JamadilAkhir, Rejab and Sya'aban came along to stop by, I'm going to treat them as I treat you Ramadhan.

So, ya Ramadhan let us be good friends for the remaining days I have with you. Ok? Cool, I hope we can hang out like best buddies ;) InsyaAllah.

good things...

2010-08-01T16:25:00.010+10:00

Well hello there..:) Doing good?? Alhamdulillah..~
I just want to share somethings I've got during this past few days..
First of all..I've read this book called "Life is an open secret" by Zabrina A.Bakar. There's a series of this book, and I read this one, titled "You, Me and We"..
And, I must say..It's a GREAT book. It's an islamic book full of advices and humors and something that we really experienced in our daily life..something that we can relate ourselves to..
If you are interested to read a knowledgable [em,how do i spell this?? o__O] book but having trouble reading a "thick" book [u know what i mean..].Then, try this one..trust me! It's worth it..:)

The way the author wrote the book is so simple, yet informative. You know what..I'll tell you a secret..[well,,not a secret anymore when I write it here.nvm.] One of my wish is to write a book..[ngeheh.] But, with this erm..how do I say..not-so great writing of mine..I doubt that I can write one..[negative thinking.heh.-__-"]
but, anyway..my point is, ohh , how I wish I can write like that..*wink* ;) and publish a book..or maybe many books..inspiring books..:D [oh sungguh tinggi cita-cita itu..heh.]
Well, I'm not going to tell you the content. Plagiarism! hehe. Bacelah sendiri!

Second thing, I learnt about taqwa. What is taqwa?
I heard about this one analogy..

[tetiba tulis dalam BM lak ea..payah nak translate dlm BI]

Umar bin Khatab pernah bertanya pada seorang sahabat Rasulullah, Ubay bin Ka'ad tentang apa itu taqwa. Lalu, Ubay pun bertanya kepada Umar, "Pernahkah kamu berjalan dikawasan yg penuh dgn duri?" Umar pun menjawab, "Ya." Pastu, Ubay pun tanya lagi, " Apa yang kamu lakukan?". Pastu, Umar jawab, "Aku sangat berhati-hati berjalan supaya tidak terkena duri itu."Dan Ubay pun berkata, "Itulah takwa".

Warning: Tak ingat the exact word by word bout the story. But, that's the rough outline lah. Yang penting mesejnye tuh. :)

So, get the idea?? InsyaAllah, then the next question you'll want to ask is.. [sori yek campur bm ngan bi ni..(=_=) my vocab is quite limited. xpaham tnya member kat sbelah tu :P]

What's the benefit of taqwa? [kalo dlm bm nye, ape kelebihan taqwa nih?just in case.hehe]
For this question, open the Al-Qur'an [kalo ade tafsir lagi best kot. kalo leh paham bhs arab xpe]
Surah At-Talaq (65) ayat 2, 4, 5.
Best tak? best kan?? [Pemalas nk tulis.]

Then, the next question you'll ask is, "Macam mane nak bertaqwa tu?" [am I a psychic or what?durh... >_<]

Ok2.Focus2. This is a guideline.

1. Mu'ahadah - mengingat perjanjian dengan Allah. Sbenarnye kan, sebelum roh kita dimasukkan dlm tubuh badan kite, roh kita ade wat perjanjian dgn Allah..Al-Qur'an (7:172). Other than that, everyday, when we perform our prayer, we made our promise too..(Al-fatihah:5) Do you like people breaking promise? No, not for me. I hate that..
So, do you want to break a promise we made to our God? No, rite?
Allah said so, don't break our promise (16:91)

2. Muraqabah - mendekatkan diri dgn Allah..ni macam konsep Ihsan

3. Muhasabah - Reflecting on what we did.. (59:18) I'm sure lots of u know what this is..

4. Mu'aqabah - Ni macam, kalo kita ade buat salah, kita denda diri kita sendiri. Bukan dgn menyakiti tubuh bdn kita secara fizikal.. cth macam, kita mengumpat org lain. Pastu kita kena sedar kita buat kesalahan tu, dan denda diri sendiri cthnye dgn menghafal satu surah..:)

5. Mujahadah - bersungguh-sungguh..cthnye macam Allah beritahu dlm Al-Qur'an (29:69)..

hmm,,hopefully u guys will understand this..I tried my best..:D Another thing that I want to tell you is..
We had a name for our house! It's called "Baitul Bushra"- which mean "Rumah Khabar Gembira" hehe..hopefully, this house will always be filled with good news..insyaAllah..:)

Oh, and other thing, my housemates are addicted with "Kalimaat". It's a card game created by Baba Ali. Cubalah main! Best!

In relation with that..I searched for Baba Ali in You tube and came across this video about Ramadhan since we're few days before Ramadhan..:)
Enjoy it..^_^

And few last words from me..sorry for any mistakes I've done..:) and enjoy ur day.

nak post gak lah

2010-07-23T11:24:00.003+10:00

Timetable sy diz sem,,xde pape tujuan ye nak post nih..
mungkin sbg rujukan buat pembaca yg boleh tlg kejutkn kalo terlajak tido pg2 kan..;)
atau utk sape2 yang rase die nye kelas banyak, tapi sbnrnye tak byk pun..=_="
heh,,tapi kelas sy pun xla byk mane pun..cume ade tersesat 2 kelas tu abis kul 3 dan
MOSTLY kelas sy akn start kul 9 which is okay,,i think..:) not too early.

hari nie,,camne tah,,leh xsedar bunyi jam..+_+
slalu,,sgt senang je terjage..org bukak lampu pun leh terjage..
ni,,org call pun leh x sdar..........-___-
ni mmg btul2 tido nyenyak ni..
harap2 tak terjadilah kejadian spt ini sewaktu ade kelas nnt yek..

Call me a nerd or geek..or anything..
but truth is,,i really hate missing a class or being late to the class..
[adesh,,pelik bukan??]
memang nerd agaknye sy ini....[>__<]
mungkin sbb dr dulu mmg diajar begini kot..
nnt rase tak tenteram kalo buat cmtu.
huahua..fairuz yg pelik..*__*

so,peringatn buat2 rakan2 yg len..
Jangan ponteng kelas! ;) *wink2*

kadang kala

2010-07-22T22:58:00.002+10:00

Saya tau "everything's happen for a reason"..tuh,,dah trtulis dah kat atas blog nih.
Tapi..:(( masih trtanye2...nape org len leh dpt result best2..hmm..
kalo nk diikutkan ckp hati nih,,dlm hati nih rase..macam dh berusaha bersungguh2 b4 exam hr tu..tp...hesh..fairuz ni,,bersyukur lah..[banyak kali dah mengingatkn diri sndiri..] tp bile tau result org len yg dpt H1/HD dan still rase x puas hati dgn rsult dieorg..jadi,,diri sendiri ni rase cam..[cam gitu la..]membuatkn ku rase agak tertekan sdikit..[kadang2 byk jugak] cuma tak ditunjuk je. Tetibe jela nk luahkn kt cni.bukan mengharap simpati..hny kerna tak mampu nk diluahkn dgn kate2.
Tapi, mama tau je bile yan rase camni ek.Memang tak ckp ape2 pun,sbb xnak kasi mama risau.Tapi instantly mama trus kasi kate2 semangat..abah pun same.:)Really,really miss u abah n mama..agaknya mmg parents ni ade instinct la kan..
Key, tu je luahan perasaan,,tak perlu diambil kisah.tak perlu risau.Kerana by the end of this writing pun,malah at this moment pun..perasaan tu dah hilang..ianya muncul pada masa2 trtentu shj.Dan ade kemungkinan post ini akn di delete spt post2 lain. Tp, mungkin tidak memandangkn anda sdg membacanya.ye,malangnye anda.

Mari kita tukar mood,kepada mood ceria..:D there are couple of things, i've been looking forward to:
~A new semester is around the corner, i have a new determination, a new goal. Hopefully, it will turn out well..:P [that's the spirit!yay!]
~The month of Ramadhan,,hopefully, will be the BEST ramadhan ever..:)
~Oh, and my senior's kenduri kahwin this weekend..ade rewang2..cam best lak..^^
~And other things..:P

See..told ya..I'm fine already. Ooh, and all the best to my sisters!! One of them, will be taking PMR diz year..One of them is doing IB (Medic)..and one of them is doing her best in everything she do. And of course to my bro, who's doing what he loves..All the best! ;) I'm missing u guys..
I'll end up my post this time with a phrase from one of my favourite surah..

"After every difficulty there is relief..Certainly, after every difficulty there comes relief.." [94:5-6]

starting all over again

2010-07-18T17:54:00.003+10:00

Dah nk start sem baru. One more week of freedom. Then,,back to hitting the books, going to lectures, attending tutes, cramping with assignments and studying for tests..Life of a student -_-
On the bright side, no more sitting at home, eating and eating and eating and sleeping and movies and all that sort of things,,u know it. Timetable for this sem,,as usual..classes everyday..most of the time, starts at 9am..ends at 2pm..or the latest will be at 3pm. I'm okay with that. So jealous of nadd n sara..n the guys..only got 3 days of classes..every week..for the rest of the semester...[i know..so not fair.heh..] U guys, jgn complain kalo spring break korang 1 week,u got about 3 weeks of holidays [2*12=24 days=3 weeks+3 days of holidays..]yup, I did the maths...bersyukurlah korang..:P
haha,,enough of jealousy..xkesa la..more classes mean more studying..and less time for playing around..:) rite??

This winter break has been a great and exciting one. Although we didn't go to other states,,it's a pleasure to have our friends from other states to come here. Hopefully u guys had a great time in Melbourne. After all, Melbourne is the BEST city in Australia...[hehe,,ade unsur berlagak ye di situ..:P] This house was very hectic since u guys came here...but now, it's very quiet and peaceful. hehe.Can't wait for the next time we'll meet again. Maybe in brisbane or sydney or adelaide..:)

The Holy Ramadhan is around the corner..bout 3 weeks more.My first ramadhan in OZ..=)
I'm very excited about it...^_^

It's a short post..but, that's all for now..see ya!

of exams and tawakal~

2010-06-19T09:18:00.003+10:00

Just so u know. I have one paper left! => FRENCH!!

Hope this one will be okay.........^_^ Bonne Chance!

For Calculus, Microecons and Accounting Reports and Analysis...hmm,,,

Let's just hope for the best!!insyaAllah..

"Leave everything in Allah's care, cuz nothing is loss under His care" (Kak Intan, 2010)

Thanks kak intan..:)

Kita slalu cakap pasal tawakal..especially time2 exam nih kan...

but we don't really understand this concept..rite??

Tawakal..i don't really know the exact definition of it..but it's something like..

berserah kepada Allah 100%..whatever happens..is under His power..

Kalau dalam bahasa Arab..kalau tak silap..mewakilkan urusan kepada pihak yang lain.

Memang senang kan nak ckp.."Kita tawakal je la kan.."

but dalam hati..still ade rase ragu2 kan...

Ragu2 yang Allah akan tolong kita..dan beri kita keputusan yang terbaik buat diri kita..

Tak kisahlah result yang akan kita dapat tu Ok ke Tak..insyaAllah..itu yang terbaik buat kita..

"Dan Dia memberinya rezeki dari arah yang tidak disangka-sangkanya. Dan barangsiapa bertawakal kepada Allah, nescaya Allah akan mencukupkan keperluannya.Sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan urusan-Nya. Sungguh Allah telah mengadakan ketentuan bagi setiap sesuatu"(65:3)

Kak intan cakap..tawakal ini berperingkat..perlu dibina dari satu peringkat ke peringkat yang lain..memang bukan mudah tapi tidak mustahil..peringkat2 yang kak intan cakap tu sy jumpa jugak benda yang same dalam laman web ni..

http://www.dakwah.info/content-category-mainmenu-2/artikel-tarbiyyah/42-tawakal-ilaa-llah

Firstly..boleh digambarkan melalui pergantungan seorang yang tertuduh kepada peguamnya..Sudah tentu orang tertuduh tersebut akan bergantung kepada peguammnya itu untuk membebaskannya daripada tuduhan..tetapi..pasti masih ada rasa ragu-ragu yang peguam itu betul2 akan berjaya. Sekiranya, ada peguam lain yang lagi hebat prestasinya..pasti orang tertuduh tersebut akan mengupah peguam hebat yang lain..

Secondly..pergantungan seorang bayi kepada ibunya. Bayi tersebut tidak mengenali sesiapa melainkan ibunya. Dia bergantung kepada ibunya untuk memberinya makan, minum dan segala-galanya.Namun bayi tersebut masih dapat melakukan sesuatu di luar pengetahuan ibunya..

Thirdly..pergantungan seorang jenazah terhadap orang yang memandikannya. Arwah tersebut tidak tahu apa pun yang dibuat oleh orang yang memandikannya itu..dan menyerahkan segalanya kepada orang tersebut..

Sometimes, we forgot to take into consideration..God's Blessings..keredhaan Allah..

We work hard..and hope to achieve the best..but we forgot..that Allah's the one who will do what best for us..we forgot that everything is under His control. But that doesn't mean that we do not have to work and strive to achieve something..because Allah will judge from our hard work..not from our achievements..

"Sesungguhnya, Allah tidak akan mengubah keadaan sesuatu kaum sebelum mereka mengubah keadaan mereka sendiri" (13:11)

Tawakal..not just in exams..

Supposed to be in everything we do..

Recap from ape yang Kak Hana cakap smalam..Surah Al-Insyirah..(94:1-8)

"Setiap kesulitan ada kemudahan....dan hanya kepada Tuhanmulah engkau berharap.."

It's undeniable..that when we are having hard times..we turn to our God for His help..

but..during our happy times..we forgot Him..who gave us this happiness..

Something to ponder upon..

insyaAllah..step by step, we'll improve ourselves to be a better person..a better muslim..

(^_^)v~

ps: Sorry, kalo ade yang tersilap tulis..atau kalau memang salah apa yg saya tulis tu..beritahulah yek..^_^

your choice

2010-05-21T10:09:00.002+10:00

I just want to share some videos..

Actually, I saw these videos a long2 time ago..[tp br tergerak hati nk share..>.<]

And I really2 love it..

When I tried to find the video again on you tube..

Guess what?? all the sound are muted for copyright reason or sumthing bla2~

And I was wondering,,there are other billions videos on you tube that has no copyright to be published...but...hmm..~ *left to be pondered upon*

Anyway,,I finally found the videos from 4shared.com! Alhamdulillah..~

Downloaded it..and watch it again..^_^

J'ai vingt ans!! Ooh la la!

2010-05-17T15:08:00.004+10:00

Bonjour! Aujourd'hui..c'est mon anniversaire! J'ai vingt ans! Ooh la la!~

[Hello! Today, is my birthday! I'm 20 years old! Ooh la la!~]

Haha,,just to practice my french a little..i dunno why,,but i tink French ppl love to say "Ooh la la!"

And that sentence is kinda cute to say..with the correct pronunciation and expression...o_O

Anyway,,Alhamdulillah..with God's willing..I'm still able to celebrate my 2oth birthday..

This time it's a bit special because I'm in Aussie! Though it didn't make any difference at all actually..~ haha..except for the fact that this morning..it's a bit cold than any other day..and I can see smoke coming out from my mouth!! It's that cold, i know! [ I'm a bit "jakun"]

May I remind you that..now, it's still autumn! Winter will come in about a month..hmm~

So..my house mates were very sweet last night! They gave me a cake n sang me a birthday song!..[thank God,, no water gun this time...] hehe.. Thank you housm8!!

And my sister record a special video for me!! and posted in on FB..Below is the video..

And also there were lots and lots of wishes from all my friends and relatives near and far...

thanks a lot u guys!!! u guys are the sweetest!! ^___________^ merci beaucoup!

It took quite some times to reply to all those messages..hopefully i didn't left anybody out..:)

My mom also called me this morning and wishes me happy birthday..! thnk u mama!! love u so much!!

Lastly,,I hope with the new older and hopefully WISER me..I can be a better person as a whole..I'll continue to do that bit by bit...insyaAllah...~ May Allah continue to give me His guidance...Amin~

A bientot!

buku cepat

2010-05-16T18:34:00.002+10:00

Buku Cepat aka Quickbooks..is an accounting software actually,,

and we got an assignment using the software.........

It's pretty cool actually..recording the transactions using the software..

creating invoices..paying bills..writing cheques..reconciling..all those things..

[if u hav any accounting background u'll know bout these things...if not..nvr mind.not a big deal..~]

We were given the source documents for 3 months...and we have to record all the transactions in the Quickbook..

Interesting?? Yup..quite interesting...;)

Dapat pengalaman jd accountant sekejap..hehe..pretty exciting..

but tedious at the same time...hahaaa..

For now,, it think I'm done with it..I've been sitting in front of the computer for hours..+_+

But insyaAllah,,i've done my best..hihi..

Next week agenda~ Monday :submission for Calculus assignment ,

Wednesday : submission for Quickbook assignment + French written test.

I don't think there's any more assignments..but there's one more test for French I think..hua..~

Right now, I'm still thinking whether to continue taking French or not..hmmmm....~

Okies..~ That's all for now...the temperature has drop to below 10 most of the time..so, it's pretty cold..j'ai froid!!!~

But, we still haven't use the heater..[bajet hebat,,leh tahan lagi..hehe..]

c'est la vie!

2010-05-07T09:45:00.002+10:00

C'est la vie means,,"That's Life"..Everything has been going so fast..

Lectures, tutorials and without I realised..it's the end of week 9 already..!

Lessons will end at week 12! and there'll be a one-week study week..and then,,voila!

J'ai des examens!

Hmm,,so this is what it feels like being in a university..(-_-")

Must study2!! My exam time table is quite okay..I don't have two subjects back to back...

But I'll finish a bit late...which is on the 22nd with FRENCH!

My first paper will be CALCULUS 2 on the 8th of June. After that will be Microecons on the 10th, followed by Accounting on the 15th..and the last one is French.

Plus,,my parents and my two lil' sister will also come here..from 10th June to 17th! Yay!!^_^

And then, there's the winter break!! It's gonna be so much fun!

But of course,, I have to get through the exams first..! ;)

Wokay..I think I need to boost up my energy to study!!

Till then, ciao!~

ps: I'm enjoying this cool gadget!!! ;) that money I spent for it was so worth it..hihi..^____^

No regrets!

the post which has no title

2010-04-28T23:08:00.004+10:00

That feeling come again. And I don't like it.

Not at all..aarrh..*screaming out loud*

..why oh why..

"Ya Allah,,tenangkanlah hatiku ini................."

+___+

i want..i want..i want..

2010-04-22T15:10:00.002+10:00

eBayy....I haven't bought anything yettttt..
But I'm keeping my eye on something......i want3x!
Until I got that thing..i won't give up..
akan teringat2x...time makan...time nk tido..
time tgh studyyyy..aaa..[cam angau pule..>__<]
ni first time ni nk beli kt ebay nih..
sape yg ade tips2 bgaimane nk menang auction nih..??
As a consumer..of course we want to buy at the lowest amount possible..
to get that maximum surplus..[econs theory..hehe..]
That day..in Microecons tute..we did an auction..
I was assigned as a buyer..and my valuation is $11[means that I only gonna bid price lower or equal to $11]
There were other buyers too with their own max value of purchase..and there were the sellers with their own opportunity costs..[they need to sell at the higher amount than their opportunity cost of course...]
and the lowest value I can get to buy the item is only for $8.. hehe..:D Now, I'm going to try and apply that skill on eBay..

Actually the activity is not for us to know how to be a good bidder or seller..it's actually a model to show that the graph of market equilibrium actually work..
In the end,,we can see that the price that both the seller and the buyer will agree on is actually about the same..Yea Econs!!

Any idea what I'm talking about??? Never mind..I was just babbling up there..i don't even think I explained it properly..hehe...sorry2..

That's all for today I think................o__O
Pray for my success!!in study and bidding!!hehe..:P
Love y'all..

J'adore faire du shopping!

2010-04-20T12:49:00.002+10:00

Bonjour! Comment ca va? Moi..? comme ci comme ca...^^
[eceh..oleh sbb ade test esok kan...konon2 practice la ni..:P]
Kalo tgk title post nih rase2 leh paham x ape maksudnye??

hehe..maksudnye, "I love shopping!"
Durhh..housm8 sy sume ckp begitu.._=.="
Ini die hasil observation sy trhadap housm8 sy..dan diri sy...

Kalau Jenny..die x brape suke sgt shopping..she'll only buy what she need..[unlike me..:P]
So, most of the time die xdelah interested nk masuk sume kedai yg ade kan..ksian die kdg2 kne tunggu jek kteorg try baju2 yg ade..
Kalau Sara..die kira okey la kalo nk shopping2 ni..tp punye die belek2..barang2 tuh..lama2...n die suke survey harga2 dulu la..banding2kn..last2 die x beli..>___<
Kalau Nadd, die leh juge buat geng shopping nih..taste die lbey kurang same..
pastu kteorg slalu la jugak try2 baju2 yg ade...persuade each other spy beli baju tuh..last2 die x beli jugak..haa..-__- kadang2 beli la jugak..
So..sy pule?? saye..jumpe bnda yg sy minat....cube2..[kadang2 x cube pun..sbb dh suke sgt kan..]
and bile dh rase cm puas hati ckit pun..ape lagi..trus beli..! haa..+_+ sbb nnt kalo x beli kan..mcm tringat2 nnt.....................aaa..^_____^ hehe..

Konklusinya..sy mmg suke shopping..hehe..xsusah la rase kalo nk blanje sumthing yg rase x mhal sgt..tp ade jugak limitnye..hehe...kalo brg tuh trlalu mahal pkir 2-3kali jugak..xdelah gila2 sgt..ehe..

Tapikan..rase guilty kadang2 tuh kan..sbb nnt konon taw sume org smngat nk kuar shopping...
nnt sy sorang je yg beli barang..ahaaa..>.< huu..bagus juge ade housm8 begini..aha..=_=
hmm..that's all for now..^^
So, kalo rase nk ajak gi shopping ke..no prob! haha..

Ps: Now, tgh blajar2 nk shopping gune eBay nih..tp kne brjage2 la..kang lupe diri lak..haha..:P

bf?

2010-04-19T16:40:00.003+10:00

Bf? Best friend..or Boyfriend?hua2..either one..I dun think I have one..yet..hehe..
Don't get me wrong..I still think all my friends around me are the best..but how do we know that sumone is our BEST friend among our other friends..I cannot rank my friends on who's the best and the second best and so on..that just feel not rite..to me la of course..:) I cannot just label someone as my best friend just for the sake of the title..cuz to me the title bear a lot of responsibilities..[dat's what i think..;)] I think each and every friends I've met so far has their own unique personality that make them the best in my heart..<3 Fair enough?

I don't think that I'm someone Best Friend either..because I'm NOT the best of a friend..haha..I'm a lousy friend who sumtimes forgot her friends' birthday and lost contact with some of her friends..:((
But..I can be there..to listen..to cry..to laugh with my friends if they need me..but I can't promise to be there each and everytime of it.. No offense to those who already have his/her best friend..I envy those people..cuz..it's not easy to find one..Make sure you treasure the friendship till the end of your life..^^

hmm..about the other bf..I dun have anything to elaborate on that..I have to brainstorm for the idea first..the topic sentence and all..haha..:D
Let's just say it's not the time yet..
The right time will come and you'll know it for sure..;)

Hmm...no idea why I suddenly came up wif the topic..I guess..it's out of boredom..and frustration of not able to do well in the Calculus test..aaaaa..:(
And got a french test coming up this Wednesday!aaaa...
Better start hitting the book.................

aaa...

2010-04-15T16:35:00.002+10:00

Dah lame x update ini blog..
The truth is..everytime I open the "New Post" page..
I typed..and in the middle of it..I end up deleting it...:(
Rasenye dah kehabisan idea..hehe..>.<
But no worries..I'll make sure this post will be published!
That's why u r reading this rite now...

Okey..let me tell u a bit on what's going on wif my life rite now..
The Easter break was cool! I got to explore around Melbourne a bit..
Some of the cool places we went to..
Yarra River (at night!) -Nice..beauuutifuull...wanna go again..:)
DFO (Direct factory outlet!!) in South Wharf..-It's so big I think we've only covered half of it..
But end up only buying a sweater and a book..^^
The Great Ocean Road..! AWEEESOMMEEE..!!
Subhanallah..really2 beautiful..pictures have been uploaded in FB..go n check it out..

I also entered the Melbond Netball competition..organised by the ISMA.
My team ALMOST won..hehe..:D Although, we did not win..all in all..it was a great experience..
It's good to know that I can still play a game for 14 mins..of course wif a break of 3 minutes between that.Tapi sbnarnye,, dah tercungap2 dah..tp continue main jek..bersemangat! hehe..:)
Seronok! But, don't get me wrong I still love Basketball though..<3 hehe..if only they have a basketball game..I'll definitely join it..

Selain Netball ade game Baling Selipar gak,,this time..we WON! yeay!
Jaguh baling selipar nih..^________^
The main thing is all the friendship that I've built throughout the competition..
I've got to know all these great seniors and friends..
It's a great experience..and a memorable one that I'll definitely won't forget..

Hopefully this "ukhuwah" will stay forever..:)

walk and walk!

2010-03-28T16:30:00.003+11:00

i think i've done LOTS walking these days..
but i was wondering why oh why do these walking not having any effects..
hmm...
rasenyeekan..wlaupun jalan byk2..[exercise lah tu kan..] tp..
makan lagi byk dr jalan..!
beras kat umah ni cam cepat jek habis..>.<
hmm..see..duk umah sndiri ni bahaye...kalo boleyh sume benda nk beli...!!
haaa....cmne niii... pastu2..i'm kinda like addicted to this choc biscuit..! chocolate divine namenye!! sgt sedapp!!!
hmm..stp kali beli msti beli 2 paket trus!! eet..-.-"
housm8 sy pun suke jugak..tp sy yg pling addicted laa...hehe..
pastu2..kalo kt uni tu..kalo ade gap in between class tu... terAMAT lah laparrr..
kalo pagi tu xsmpat nk bwk bekal pape ke...
in the end, trpakse beli kebab die yg sgt besar..!
time mule2 dulu..cam xabis la kalo makan satu kebab tuu..
tp..skarang nih...boleyh jek abis kan kebab tu..!! aa!! selera saye sudah mmbesar!!cam org putih!! adeyh..=.="

pastu2..hari tu..kteorg wat carrot cake!!
n then buat bubur kacang hijau tuu...hehe..[nadd yg buat..sy tolong rase jek..]
pastu lpas ni nk wat kek pisang lak..tp..ditangguh kan dulu..kne abiskan bubur tu..
nnt byk sgt foodddd!!!! hihi..so, in conclusion..xyah risau la kat cni nk cari makann.. macam2 ade....!! :P xdenye kebuluran..duit jek kne ade..hehe..

ooh2..sbnarnye nk cite pasal bende lain.. pasal EXPLORACE!!
hehe..smalam kteorg join explorace organised by kakak2 nih.. jalan2 around melbourne! bes2!! these are some of the places n tasks that we have to do!

1st checkpoint- Melbourne Museum!! sangat best kottt...hrtue penah lalu jek xpenah masuk.. this time dapat masuk..it's free for student!! everything yg free mstilah best kan..hehe..bukan itu shj...dlm museum ni pun mmg best...cam petro sains la..interactive. not the lame old museum bout history sume tuh..hehe. kteorg nk gi lagi nnt time easter break!!

2nd-victoria state library! this library mmg cantik n classic! slalu lalu dpn jek..dekat jek ngan rumah actually.but only smalam br kteorg masuk..bes jugak library nii!!! ade internet free!!! tu yg tgh duk kt cni nih on9..hihi..

3rd-laguna@QV..this place is like a heaven for food lovers..haha..esp for asian la. sebab sgt byk product from asian countries.brg dr m'sia pun ade..n HALAL one..tp, kteorg xdelah slalu g cni..kteorg slalu g kt MIN PHAT..dkat ngn victoria market.

4th-Victoria Market..hmm..tmpat ni dah terer dah.pasal dkat ngn umah kan..hehe..:D

5th-Southern cross station..huu...tmpat ni pun best gak!! it's a train station but then..nearby got a shopping complex. the seniors said it used to be DFO...xtau la skarang ni dh tukar ke..tp mase lalu tu nmpak la byk summer nye sale!! okey, definitely we have to go here again!! hehe. and the

last checkpoint..Federation Square- it's another place yg kteorg penah passed by jek..tp xpenah stopped by to have a good look at..kat sini cm menarik sbb bangunan die cam kotak2 n menariklah..slalu ade byk event kat cni.. and lastly at 2.30 pm our group has managed to finished all the task and guess what??!! we won!! huu...hebat x?? hehe.. thnx kat groupmate yg len.. yg sporting n energetic! hehe.. InsyaAllah, kalo de mase lagi leh join next year! hehe..

All in all..it was a good weekend..hate to say that it's Monday tomorrow... huu..and i still have a pile of assignments to be done!! key, till now..chow!!

[Team 3 in front of the Victoria State Library]

hard to say it out

2010-03-19T16:12:00.002+11:00

I realised I don't really like to say bad things bout something/someone.
My mom had pointed this out to Jen's parent. She said, "Kalau tanye yan opinion bout anything ke..mesti die kate OK/boleyh jek.."
I was wondering at that time..am I always like that?
and the answer is YES!
I wonder WHY..
...
Maybe because I don't want my family to worry bout me by saying I'm not OK..
or maybe because I don't want to let other people see that I'm not OK..
or maybe because I want to spare other people's feelings..
or maybe because I really don't like to be a negative person...I like to view anything from the bright side..even when there's the downside of it..
or maybe because I just wanna be thankful for what I have...rather than asking for more..
or maybe because I REALLY am OKAY..that's why I said "I'm OK"..Am I convincing enough?
or maybe.. because I simply don't want to answer so many other questions resulting from saying "No, I'm not OK.."

Heh..Sometimes I think I'm a bored person..-.-" I'd rather listen than talk.
and sometimes I just don't like to talk. My sis always said, "Kak yan ni..xde respon lah.." [Bile pikir2 balik..btul juge..]
and sometimes.. when I dislike something..I'd rather kept quiet bout it n hurt other ppl's feeling..than speaking it out.
Hmm..is that good or bad??

that's me for sure.

2010-03-14T20:47:00.002+11:00

These..need to go away..~asap

-Taking naps in the evening which will result to a deep 2hours sleep..not a nap anymore..>.<

-Reading books while lying on the bed and eventually fell asleep with books wide open..or crushed in some cases..

-Sitting in front of books preparing to study but end up thinking bout sumthing else or doing sumthing else..

-Procrastinating things that should not be procrastinated!!-.-"

-EATING chocolates n ice creams in the middle of the night!

-Hook up in front of the television for hours.

-Spending money but not remembering what I did with the money. Because I end up having more money than i think i should have..Make sense??!! Don't get me wrong..It is GOOD...but, somehow it's weird..cuz I've been spending a lottt..hmm..Alhamdulillah, rezeki agaknye..;)

-Trying to be organised but end up disorganised..heh..+_+

Generally, I have to stop being that part of me which are not that good to keep.

Moving on to the next issue..

Here are some of the things that I learned here..n I wish to share with u guys..

-Bring your own bags when you're going to shop..It may be a lil' hard to do at first..but trust me..you'll get use to it..n it's sumthing we can do to save the environment..rite??
Fyi, we bought a trolley..save all the troubles of carrying heavy stuffs..:)

-Simple phrases like: "Thank you", "Hello", "Hi", "How r u doing?", "How was you day?" are not that hard to say..even to a total stranger..

-Praise someone with simple words such as: "Excellent", "Good Job". "Nicely done"..even when they did not do very well..

-Just ask if you're unsure about sumthing..no harm done..

-Smiling to other people..even when we didn't even know them..even the postman or postwoman..^^

-Simply said....Just be friendly with other people..even to the fishmonger..cuz who know..u might get a discount!! hehe..:P

bon jour!

2010-03-03T18:35:00.004+11:00

Finally, my time table is all sorted out! Yeay!
So, my timetable is the same wif jenny!! excpt for transition 2 commerce.
B4 diz, my calculus is at 4pm..evening class..sleepy..........
but I've managed to shift it to the OVERFULL class at 11am!!
I've attended all the lectures except for Accounts which will be tomorrow..
So far, I must say it's quite a challenge attending all the lectures n tutorials..

As u can see, I chose French as my breadth subject! huhu..^^
I've always wanted to learn new language..
n at last, voila!! [i tink voila is french?? rite?? heh..-.-"]
There's no lectures for french..only tutorial..
and our tutor is Madam Chantal..:)huu..
So...how was it?? She's soooooo fast!!!!! >.<
Thank God, I recorded her lecture..haaa.:D
I have to work harder on my french!
It's great that my other subjects are not that heavy..
so.. I can concentrate on my french then..:P

And also, I have to buy the French textbook! n it cost $160..aiyoo..
so mahal meh..
n I had to buy one more book..for calculus..
hmm.....mane mau dpt yek..

Ooh, i forgot to tell..I bought winter clothes! one only actually...heh.
A white one!! Later bile I had basuh bersih2..n pakai then I take picture okeyh?
Baru cunn..hehe..^^
oh, and I bought another sweater! hehe..a cute one..

Currently, we're searching for a good internet plan for our house..
The one we want..there are no ports available anymore...:(
hmmm2..should we wait for next month n use this mobile broadband first??
Okeyh...think I'll stop here..

Actually, there's many things to do..
I have to organise myself! huu..
keyh, ciao!!
eh salah..au revoir!! ;)

all in one

2010-03-01T19:23:00.002+11:00

Last saturday, we had some sort of gathering here in our house..
Our seniors called it as a "house-warming"..or as I like to call it "makan-makan"..
or some people may wanna call it as an "eating event"..or whatever..I would go if "makan-makan".hehe.

We invited some of the seniors who had helped us through a lot since we've arrived here..thank u!!!
So, aunty cooked laksa johor!! [yup!! cool rite, even in OZ can eat laksa johor!! me likey!!hehe..^^] and we also cooked some bihun goreng..and prepared some dishes..such as puding and jelly!! n some fruits as well..yum2!! =)

That morning, we went to shop for the groceries and stuff..Our destination: LAGUNA at QV and also the Victoria Market..There's so much things you could find at LAGUNA n at vic market. Here's the interesting part..Vic Market sells not only those seafoods n veggies n fruits..
They sell clothes n other stuffs too!!! [Yup, this section is at the back of the market..so we didn't quite notice the stalls at the first time..heh -.-"] This is so cool..now I can shop for my clothes..
fyi, I didn't bring so much clothes here..since my lugagge is all packed up with food stuffs..+_+
I can buy new clothes!! + some winter clothes too!

On Sunday, we went to this program called "Langkah Bermula" organised by the ISMA.
Here, we met the seniors and they gave us many useful advices and tips to live here in Melbourne and excel in our studies.

One thing that I'm truly amazed is..most of the seniors I've met here are all GREAT an EXCELLENT people. When you asked them what are the studying..most of them will say..MASTER..PHD..like it was nothing. =.=" And I was like Wow!! with an awestruck expression
like this.. (^o^)..[eh,this look like a bird..-.-'] Hebatnyeee..And I was only starting my first year!
Longgg wayy to gooo.......................~,~

After that, they break us into group to meet wif each course's seniors. SO, me n mazni met wif this one senior called Kak Leena. She's VERY helpful..wif all the advices n tips for actuarial studies..^^ I'm tired of hearing ppl like questioning why me n mazni took AS n like doubting us too..the thing is, we haven't even started our class, n we felt pressured by all these comments...>.<
So, it's good to have someone encouraging us like that. She said something like this, "Ask yourself this, 'other people had done it..why not me???????' " Yup, I love it. Thanks a LOT kak leena!!!!!

And..today, Monday...my first class..^_^
8am-Intro Micro tute!!
Something happen this morning!! Once in a lifetime experience..a very frightening one I must say..
I was cooking 'roti telur' on the pan..I open the fan on top of the cooking stove. But, I guess..the pan is so not good..n it burnt the bread easily...-.-" n then...
there goes the smoke alarm!!! it was veryyy noisy..I was freaking out..well, not really..hehe..-.-
I woke up the entire house..urgh..I was praying really hard that the sprinkler n the fire alarm will NOT go off.. fyi, IF the fire alarm goes off...fire brigade will come..n not only the whole residence of the APARTMENT have to vacate the premises..AND we will have to PAY for the fire brigade..n it's NOT cheap u know..

So,,,what happen is..
the smoke detector..
DIDN'T go off....OMG!..Thank GOD!!! Alhamdulillah!!!!
YEAYYYYYYYY!! I can breathe nowww..^________________________^
You know what....I kept encounter with this "life-threatening" [not really life-threatening actually..-.-] SCARYYY experience..
I had told u before..that I was caught before..doing something illegal..hehehh..:)
But..I'm not going to tell u the story n all..it's a secret I'll never tell.....*wink2*
Only my family member knew bout that..n maybe if you're lucky enough..I'll tell u.
[hehe, suke buat anda trtanye2..;)]

Anyway, I go to class as usual..recovering from the "shock"..haha..
It's freeeeeezinggggg..you can see the sun shining..but it's windy n collddddd..~,~
After that, Calculus lecture..I smuggle myself into this class.heheh..cuz, it's not approved yet..
but, no worries..they will not take attendance or anything..:P and there were like so mannnyyy ppl in the class..don't think the lecturer will recognise me or anything..;)

The next class...is transition to commerce lecture..it's doesn't have any credit..but it's a compulsory..Since the class was in the evening, it was very sleeeeppyy..[nope, don't get the wrong idea..I'm a good student..I don't sleep!!hahah:D]

Then, I went straight back home. and went for my deep beauty sleep..^_^ hihi.

So that's my longggg story..-_____-
Sorry, I tend to write a longgg post if I have many things to tell..cannot miss a single point!
Must tell everything, so that one day I can look back at this post and laugh my heart out..:D
hehe..>.<
toodles!

Salam Maulidur Rasul

2010-02-26T10:44:00.003+11:00

Salam Maulidur Rasul..
from the land of down under..
InsyaAllah, in a different place..
in a different environment..
I will always remember my roots..
who I am..
where I came from..
and what I believe in..^^

The pressure is on.

Alhamdulillah, I got a confirmation from the uni..
that I met the prerequisite to enrol the subjects..
And now, I had to wait for the approval..
So that I can arrange my schedule..yea!

I had bought some of the books from the seniors too!
and I passed the English test I sat the other day..
Alhamdulillah..hope things will go well..

and btw, I took french as my breadth!
Haha! I'd love to learn a new language..and this is my chance!
Let's see first if I can cope with it in the first week..
^___________^

Bon voyage!
Bon jour!
Bon Appetite!

[haha,, itu saje yg saye tau....ejaan nye pun men hentam jek..:P]

Rambling...again.

2010-02-25T10:24:00.002+11:00

Today, gonna go pick up my student ID, student diary, and bank card.
And also, pick up my books which I bought from the seniors.

I hope they will approve my subject ASAP.
I cannot stand waiting. Really, I can't. >.<
I hope this whole subject thingy can be resolved soon.
So, I can concentrate in preparing myself for the class..

The weather here is becoming more chilly and windyyy..
It's changing into Autumn now..
And I can't imagine how cooold will it be during winter!

Did I tell you bout our quest to find a fan??
Ya, when we arrived here..sumtimes the weather is a bit hot.
And, in the apartment, there's no fan..so, we are determined to buy one..
oops, three actually..one in the living room, one in me n mazni's room..
and one in sara's n nadd's room..

First stop is IKEA..big IKEA..although not as big as the one in KL.
No fan!

Second stop is K-Mart below IKEA...still NO FAN!!! SOLD OUT!!

Third stop..Big W!! at QV[ya, i know sounds cool..] Still NO FANNNNNNN!!!!!!
This is so FUNNY..fan all sold out!! can't believe it!! >.<

Then went to Brunswick..got K-Mart oso..Still,,
NO FANNNN!! -.-"

Aiyooo..
This is so hilarious..haha..
At last we asked Uncle Fuad, if he can find us any fan near his house..
Tadaa...three fan!! $13 each!!
But......
It's colddd already!!!
No need for fan!!
Haish..>___<

Haha..:D
Never mind..stock up for Summer then..hahah..
That's the end of the quest for finding fans....*_*

up and...

2010-02-24T23:36:00.002+11:00

Whatever happen, don't give up, k!

Feeling a bit not good..:(
Problem wif my subjects. Not yet approved.
Haish..>.< Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusanku ini..
Tenangkanlah hatiku ini..

Hopefully, everything's gonna b alrite..InsyaAllah..
Cheer up fairuz!

I have to stay strong!!Hiyak! >.< Berusaha!!

Another day

2010-02-21T00:48:00.002+11:00

Rajin lak nk update2 nih. Suke hati korang la nk bace yek..^^

Hari ni gi IKEA!! wah, sungguh seronok shopping!!
Hehe..sangat BEST!!!!! especially bile gune duit abah kan..hihik.
TP, rase guilty plak lpas tuh..huu..>.<
I'll pay you back, k!!

Saye beli...katil, n tilam..
And mestilah beli bantal bukan..
pastu dh ade bantal nk kne ade bantal peluk..so beli lah bantal square yg kecik ckit tuh.

Pastu beli quilt for winter..yang bley thn sejuk itu..hehe..:D ngan cover die skali.
Pastu, hmm..beli kerusi study..
Pastu, beli adelah barang2 rumah yg len..
Macam2 ade.^_^Sukenyee..

Huu, tau byk belanje..-.- but this is for long investment. Can be used until 3 years hopefully..or maybe 4 years..insyaAllah.:D if i can do honours!

Quickie

2010-02-20T00:24:00.003+11:00

Just a quick update for my sissy yg menyibokks!

Pagi-pagi..[actually dh tgh hari sbnarye..around 11 or 12.hehe.>.<]
But since the Victoria market is just round the corner. U can see it from the apartmnt..
So, why hurry??? heheheh..
I have to say this..I love the market. It's quite clean. And I love to see the big2 fish n big2 prawn..
SEDAPNYYYYYYEEEEEE..rase cm nk makan jek..tp2,,,,,,mahal..huuu..>.< Sekali sekala boleh la kott..
And2, near the market there's a groceries store..Asian store. Kat dalam tu,,macam2 ade..
Betul, ape yg best, sos cili MAGGI pun ade..heheh..yg xde Kicap Kipas tu..yang ade kicap masin..[xsuke2] Mama,,bawak ea nnt..hehehee..:)
Serai, daun kari, daun limau purut, segala jenis perencah, segala jenis spices..and..CENCALOK pun ade...huh. Belacan je belum jumpe lagi..hehe. Feels at home already..hehe.

Some of the things I love about Melbourne so far..is the weather. Hehe. They said, you can experience 4 seasons in one day at Melbourne, tp blum rase lagi..stakat ni cuaca nye quite windy..and sejuk ckit..Panas pun x panas sgt. Maybe cuz summer dh nak abis.

Pastu2...Dalam mase beberape hari yg lepas nih..the most activity I've done is walking. Yes! Suddenly I felt in love with walking! Really! No sweat! haha..:D
Although some place may seem a lil bit far..but I found out when we walk..it's not that far..hehe.
So, maybe my goal to lose some weight can be achieved aftr all..hehe..Since my uni is about 15-20 mins walk. Hehe. Or, mayb I can buy a bike. That's another form of exercise too! Yea!
And I've travelled by tram too!Cool!

Apartmnt..almost settled down already. Going to IKEA 2morow to buy some stuff for the house.
I'm having doubts bout the subjects to be taken. Haish! -.-"

And you know what..since I came here..when I said that I'm doing Bachelor of Commerce, and majoring in ACTUARIAL SC..the respons are about the same. Yup. The same for all.
I know lots of seniors yg amik actuarial mule2 dah tukar sbb susah. I KNOW it's SUPER hard.
I know, I know..huh. But, xkan nk give up plak kan sbb blum cube lagi..haish >.<
Pressure gak dgr cam gitu..hmm................
Lupekan2....yang penting buat yg trbaik. OK! InsyaAllah.

key..sudah pukul 1. mau tido.

ps: gamba blum upload lagi. Malas.hehe. Nanti la yek.

i'm here!

2010-02-16T00:23:00.003+11:00

Greetings from Melbourne!!

Depart from KLIA at 2135. Guess what my bag is 29 kg! woot!! Sangat hebat kan??
wanna know sumthing?? I didn't cry when I said goodbye..huu..
I guess sebab JPA tuh kasi 5 min jek tuk ckp gudbye kt parents n family lps dia kasi ceramah.
Ces.Hampeh..xsempat nk bermesra2 lagi.walhal boarding gate bukak lambat lagi..huu..
My cousin yg br smpai pulak..sempat peluk2 jek..xsempat nk ckp pape sgt..heh..>.<
Kat dalam plane..my seat is separated from Jenny. Dinner in the plane was cool..Ayam masak merah n tomato rice...plus xtra 3 ferrero rocher...but since I already ate b4 dat..n I'm soooo sleepy..I ate only a quarter of the whole thing..I know, such a waste rite? n blum sempat stewardess to nk kutip balik I felt asleep..hehe..smpai die kena kejut sy tnye dah abis makan ke belum..mayb die ingatkn yang sy tertido while eating kott..hahha..:D
And I don't even watch the movies..because..i'm soo tired..-.-"
Tido pun cam x lena sangat lah..asyik terjage jek..huu..
When I woke up..quickly reach for the toilet to clean myself up..b4 the other passenger start to wake up..kalo x nnt toilet tu sesak >.<

Alhamdulillah..reached here safely..^_^ this morning at 0830.
Passed the custom..declare all the foods..heheh..It's all good! No need to dispose any of the items my mom packed for me!! Yeay!
And then head for our house by the airport pickup..along the way..
I saw so manny beautifuuul n cuuute house...^_^ like a cottage..
They just look so cuute..One day I will have a house like that! hehe..:D

Once we reached the house, we go straight to the bank to open up the account n then straight to the register for our phone..I got NOKIA E71! cool!
After that, we went to the senior's house..and ate lunch for free!!! terima kasih seniors!!
After that, we head home..fuhh..it's a longg dayy...pastu, terus terlena...-,-

Pastu, petang2 kul 8 skype ngan my family..[kul 8 masih cerah lagiii...>.<]
fyi,,kt cni 3jam lagi cepat..yep..tp kami lum dpt ssuaikan diri..-.-"
kami makan dinner kul 10 lbey tadi..heheh kalo kt msia..kul 7..
My first dinner in Melb..I cooked scrambled eggs!! huhu..

Then ni..hmm..kne pakse diri tidoo..
keyh,, nyte2..^_^ dh kul 1 lbey..-.-"

dub dab..2x

2010-02-14T16:09:00.002+11:00

The clock is ticking. In a few more hours, will be going to KLIA.
Huu..thank you Abah for this Broadband..hehe,bley on9 di mane saje...
[tak,,bukan tuk saye broadband ini..>.< abah beli spy nnt ley skype dgn saye di mane2 saje..hehehe..]

So, I would like to grab this chance to thank everybody..
for the wishes, encouragement, support, prayer..n everything..
Wish all the best for me..! n pray for the best!!
I'm gonna do my best!^_^

The next time you hear from me..
I'll be writing from Melbourne..!
Adios!

Nasi Lemak

2010-02-11T16:32:00.002+11:00

Sy br belajar buat nasi lemak.
Ye. Saye tau..kamu akan ckp, "Baru belajarr???"
Btul. Sebelum ini xtau nk buat camne..>.<
[fuhh,,pengakuan secara public nih..]
Sbb tiap2 kali mak buat msti xde kat dapur.
Either malas..or memang xde kt umah..pkir la sndiri yek.

Hmm. Tp, xpe..sy dah belajar dah sekarang..^^
Yang lepas itu, biarkan saje berlalu yep..:P
Tp..nasi lemak yg sy buat ini..rasenyee tawarrrlaa..>.< adeyh..
Mama kate xcukup garam n santan. wokeyh! after dis improve yek.
kesian lah future housm8 sy nnt..heh.=.="
tp , masalahye,, camne nk tau dh cukup lum garam ngan santan tuh..
bukannye boleh rase beras tuh time belum masak lagi..bile nasi dah masak br leh rase.
tp..dh xleh wat pape dh time tuh kan.nk tmbah garam kat nasi?? +_+

Mama kate, "takpe,, nnt lame2 boleh tau sendiri..bile dah biase masak.."
Adeyh,,nampak sgt xbiase masak..o_O
The truth is.. mmg xslalu masak..i mean masak sendiri sorang2 la..
Tp, selalu jek TOLONG mak masak..hehe..^^
Kiranye..secara teorinye masak camne tu tau la juge..
Cume praktikalnye kurang ckittt...;P

Sbnarnye,,boleh jek kalo sruh masak...
tp,,nak ngade2 nk suruh mak masakkan..
Nanti g sane rindu kt masakan mama..:DD [buley terima alasan ini..????hehe..]

Dun worry future housm8..insyaAllah sy xkan meracuni kamu sume..hehe.
Suke nk masakkan utk org len..:) Dalam mase yg same..nervous pun ade juge.
Kalo xsedap..mintak maaf awal2..hehe..;)
Jealous ngan org yg hebat bab masak2 nih..
It's OK..
I know I got my mom's talent somewhere here inside me..^____^
Juz have to find it.hehe..:)
In the mean time..bear wif me..will ya?

Help!

2010-02-05T13:47:00.002+11:00

911 help please! or in aussie they said the emergency dial number is 000..
[need to remember that!]

I need some help in choosing my breadth subject!
I need help to study for maths as I need to take the maths placement test -.-"
and english too! [I screwed up a lot in the SACE exam..since I have to take all these tests..haish..>.<] and...
I might end up taking more classes than everyone else..[not a good start, right? but then..look on the bright side..I can be more hardworking than usual......right???????]
Gosh, I'm really freaking out here..+_+
And I maybe flying of to OZ in like 9 days?? if my maths is still functioning..or even less than that since there's no call from JPA yet.

I really need to work hard. There's no joke here, fairuz!
If you're going to have a degree in Actuarial Studies these are what you have to do..
Study Hard, and pray for a guidance from Allah..
"Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusanku...tenangkanlah hati hambaMu ini..."

[I haven't start my classes yet..n I'm freaking out...huhhh...>.<
OK. enough with all the whining..so NOT me..

I gathered all my things..washed my sport shoes
[peringatan buat rakan2.kalo nk bwk kasut yg dh gune..basuh bersih esp kat tapak kasut..pastikan xde tanah2..kalo x ade kemungkinan kasut itu akan dibuang atau dijalankan ujian ke atasnye..o_O ade senior yg pesan..]

I can't imagine how's my life going to be over there.
I can only pray for the best. InsyaAllah..:D
There's many people who want me to do my very best.
And there's many people want me to succeed.
There's many advices I've recieved..and so many encouragement..:)
Thank You. I don't want to let these people down. I really don't.
So, I hope everything's will go well..and even there'll be many bumps along the road..
I hope I can be strong to continue my journey, learned from my mistakes..
improved myself..and be a better person..
to myself..to my family..to my religion and to my country.

[this is quite an extraordinary post, is it? hehe..^_^]

aha..

2010-02-02T23:49:00.005+11:00

A random update for everyone who's been wondering what I've been doing all this while..
Hehe..^_^

Well, you missed a lot..!;)hehe..

First of all there's this whole medical checkup thingy..
Got a bit scared when I have to do the xray TWO times! [well, not as much as Sue..but still..it's not good for our health isn't it??? with all those radiation and stuff..hmm....o_O]
The 1st one, the nurse had called me and said that there's sum sort of "bayang2" on my xray, which the doctor also not sure what it is...[prettty scary, huh?]
She even showed me where it is..
Well, personally..I don't see anything unusual there on the xray..it looked like how an xray should be..black n greyish..
but then, with my lack of medical knowledge..I totally have no idea how to look at an xray..hehe..=.="
So, I took the xray 2nd time. When the nurse had called my name again, well..she doesn't look very convincing..but then she said OK! You can go now! Alhamdulillah..xde pape kot..hehe..^_^

2nd of all,
I went to my aunt's house in PJ n met with the lil Pija..she's my cousin's daughter..n that must have make her my niece, rite??
Hihi, she's very cute but verryyy naughty.
She can only remember my mom's name..so she said..
"eyh2, tok adik lah.." [adeyh..+.+ tok adik tu mak saye..hehe..:P]
So, saye duk melayan die men masak2..hehe..smbil tu try to make her call me "aunty yan"!
alas, she got it! hehe..me happy aunty!! ^_^
pstu siap men tido2..or kalo pija ckp, "bam..bam"..

The next day, gi lagi umah my aunty tu..
kali ni..die ckp.."eyh2...aunty yan lah..." heheh..^_^
She's a very bright kid I tell u.. full of tricks..
Die ckp "meh cini..meh cini.." pstu tarik lah org nek atas..die nk ajak g bilik die..pstu smpai kt satu pintu bilik yg brkunci tu..die sruh la bukak..yg saye ni..mane tau bilik die mane satu..
jadi bukak jelah, ingatkn bilik die..
rupenye tu bilik org len yg mmg dikunci spy si pija ni xmasuk n selongkar brg..
ceyh!! budak kecik ini..trick org..>.<>.<

[ni budak kecik tu..bergaye dgn beg..! hehe..comey:)]

[pastu ni men bam2..sy tido sbelah teddy tuh!^_^]

hmm..pstu, I went to Melbourne pre-departure briefing in KLCC. Huhu, dpt lah jumpe our future housm8..put! hehe, orgnye kecik gak cm sy..hehe..:P Alhamdulillah..I think the accomodation is settled then..n of course mazni's parents n mine went along pretty well..hehe..:) Truthfully, I feel a bit nervous to go to OZ..really nervous act..n a bit stress out..hehe..>.<
Seriously, I'm freaking out..who doesn't?? with all the placement tests I'm supposed to take..hmm..n also, many ppl had been saying that..majoring in actarial sc is super hard..[i heard that a lot..but then, it makes me scared...+_+]
hmmmmm.....
It's gonna b ok, fairuz!! dun worry!! [trying to b positive here.....:)]

huu, n one good thing though..my visa has finally been approved! Alhamdulillah..now, the only thing I need to do is send out those documents to JPA..n start packing!
Well, I've started a lil packing actually..my mom had made me..or else that freaking large green baggage will still be on top of my closet..hehe..That beg is sooo heavy..thanked god I've got xtra 10 kg! hehe..:P

Hmm..that's all for now..will update soon!! :)

Here I am...

2010-01-27T22:09:00.004+11:00

Here I am..in INTI..
Well, I've been here since Monday actually..:)
Planning to do my visa n medical checkup on that day too...
but an unfortunate event occured which caused me to delay the process..>.<
xsuke...xsuke..haa,,tp nk wat cane....=.="

hmm..all I want to do is to get all these things done..for real..
so, I can go back home to BP peacefully..
And packed all my belongings..which I haven't done a thing.nadda..=.="
The big striking green baggage which my dad had bought looked so...
peacefully..lying there..above my closet..waiting to be burdened by my 2o kg stuff..
or 30 kg [if i managed to get that GRAD card thingy done...hihi..so that xtra 10 kg stuffs can b taken..:)) since that large green thingy I'm talking about is already pretty heavy even though without any stuffs in it..]

By the way,,I MAYbe flying off to Melbourne on the 14th of February which is CNY n my sis birthday..so b prepared ppl! [for what?? hehe..]

hmm2....aaa..ooh
so, what have I been doing here in INTI??
Playing basketball!! n eating dinner with my ex-floorm8...:D
Today,, went for JPA Pre-Departure Briefing..!
I got my blazer already! I think it's quite okay...;)
but I think it's a bit long for me..hehe..[have I been shrinking all this time???adeyh..>.<]
and also,, recieved our pocket money..heheh..$_$
Oh. n one interesting point brought up by one of the senior which I managed to remember solidly in my mind...which is..
MELBOURNE IS A SHOPPING HEAVEN FOR GIRLS!!

haha..That's sound quite challenging..hehe..
Okeyh, I admit it..I'm a bit shopaholic person..a BIT, okay..
But I can still be carried away sumtimes..esp, if i have money in my pocket!

hmm..n also, managed to finished my visa application this evening! thank God!
And tomorrow will be heading to Tung Shin for my medical checkup..
huu,, kene nek ktm..=.=" ade sape2 baek hati nk tolong hntarkannn?? hehe..:)

tonyte..planning to go to Bondi..sudah lame x kesini.....:)
mau makan nasi ayam bakar!
hehe..:)
Okies, enough babbling..
Signing Off~

No Doubt

2010-01-11T23:58:00.002+11:00

My parents are great.
No Doubt!
Love them soooo much..! :)
Thank You Allah for giving me such wonderful parents..

Feelings

2010-01-08T23:56:00.004+11:00

Feelings..
[dun worry..post ini bukan pasal feeling "jiwang-jiwang itu..heh.]
No,no,no..blum smpai masenye..haha..>.<
Keyh..back to the main point..

Feeling no.1: Proud
Actually, I wanna say how proud I am to be in INTI..hehe..[percayelah..]
Today, I found this picture in The Star newspaper.. Tadaa..

Dengan banggenye..sy nk ckp..mereka itu kwn2 saye..
[tumpang bangge jek..=.="]
Of course I hoped that I'm one of them..
I guess I didn't work hard enough..huu..>.<
You know..my mom just did this frame where she put any pictures of us that made it to the newspaper or magazine..it's like wall of fame or sumthing..
My lil sis n my brother's pictures are already there..
Me n my other 2 sis were indeed very jealous..haha..
My sis said.."Haa..nanti kalo kak yan wat salam perantauan kt aussie nnt..letaklah gambo kak yan kt ctu.."...and I was like..=.=" [ya rite..is that an achievemnt that shud b proud of??..haha..>.<]

It's ok..one day..I'll make it to the Wall of Fame..
Bersemangat! >.<[adeyh..bukannye pape pon..haha..:D]
Hihi..at least I'm included in this section though..[even though my name was not mentioned..hehe..]

Give me some moment to be proud of myself will ya?? aha..thank you2..(:
Enough wif that..hehe..

Feeling no.2: Excited+Happy
In few more weeks will be flying..[spe yg x excited?..]
Everything's been going well. Alhamdulillah..^_^
Hopefully the visa application n the medical check up will go well too..InsyaAllah..¬
But still lots of things to do..huu..

Feeling no.3: Sad
Hmm..of course..gonna be away from my family..:(
gonna miss my dad's coolness n words of advice..
my mom's cook and constant reminder..
my bro's caring attitude..
and my sissy's constant nagging...n noisiness..haha..:D

I know..it's the sacrifice we had to do..huu..

Also..had a feeling that a good friend..
been ignoring me..huu..
[mungkin hanye perasaan sy shj..hehe..atau mungkin sy yg salah??]
tp still rase sdey gak..+.+

OK.
Enough wif the feelings..Sorry..:)
dun worry..I'm okay..^_^hehee..

Signing off for now¬

Melbourne..^_^

2010-01-07T11:57:00.005+11:00

This is it. I'm going to Melbourne, ppl!
Alhamdulillah..I got my 1st choice..:)
Huu, all the waiting..is worth it..
And I'm going to UniMelb wif Jenny! ;)
can't wait! can't wait!
My other classm8 who are going to UniMelb as far as i know..
Joanne, Junhao, Wei Ching..spe lagi??
and the QS students..going to RMIT which is in Melb too..
are Nadd and Sara!! yeay!!

We got two houses to choose for already..!
Thanx to the seniors..
But haven't decided which one yet..
Seems like most of my classm8 will b going to UNSW..
We are going to on our separate ways..huu..:(
Never mind..there's always holiday..n we can get together2..
yeay!
Ok. I'm a bit over-excited..haha..:D

Still got lists of things to do..
send the acceptance offer letter..
waiting for the CoE..
do my visa n medical check up..
n of course...
SHOPPING! >,<
Heh. xley shopping byk2 ..berat sgt nnt beg..=.="

Getting better at cooking..
hehe...o_O

Anyway..
Well..better start practicing those aussie slangs..

goodday mate!
=.="